Mugby
Junction
the
ALL THE YEAR ROUND (1866-Christmas issue)
CHAPTER
I--BARBOX BROTHERS
"Guard!
What place is this?"
"Mugby
Junction, sir."
"A
windy place!"
"Yes,
it mostly is, sir."
"And
looks comfortless indeed!"
"Yes,
it generally does, sir."
"Is
it a rainy night still?"
"Pours,
sir."
"Open
the door. I'll get out."
"You'll
have, sir," said the guard, glistening with drops of wet, and looking at the tearful
face of his watch by the light of his lantern as the traveller descended, "three
minutes here."
"More,
I think.--For I am not going on."
"Thought
you had a through ticket, sir?"
"So
I have, but I shall sacrifice the rest of it. I want my luggage."
"Please
to come to the van and point it out, sir. Be good enough to look very sharp, sir.
Not a moment to spare."
The
guard hurried to the luggage van, and the traveller hurried after him. The guard
got into it, and the traveller looked into it.
"Those
two large black portmanteaus in the corner where your light shines. Those are
mine."
"Name
upon 'em, sir?"
"Barbox
Brothers."
"Stand
clear, sir, if you please. One. Two. Right!"
Lamp
waved. Signal lights ahead already changing. Shriek from engine. Train gone.
"Mugby
Junction!" said the traveller, pulling up the woollen muffler round his throat
with both hands. "At past three o'clock of a tempestuous morning! So!"
He
spoke to himself. There was no one else to speak to. Perhaps, though there had
been any one else to speak to, he would have preferred to speak to himself. Speaking
to himself he spoke to a man within five years of fifty either way, who had turned
grey too soon, like a neglected fire; a man of pondering habit, brooding carriage
of the head, and suppressed internal voice; a man with many indications on him
of having been much alone.
He
stood unnoticed on the dreary platform, except by the rain and by the wind. Those
two vigilant assailants made a rush at him. "Very well," said he, yielding. "It
signifies nothing to me to what quarter I turn my face."
Thus,
at Mugby Junction, at past three o'clock of a tempestuous morning, the traveller
went where the weather drove him.
Not
but what he could make a stand when he was so minded, for, coming to the end of
the roofed shelter (it is of considerable extent at Mugby Junction), and looking
out upon the dark night, with a yet darker spirit-wing of storm beating its wild
way through it, he faced about, and held his own as ruggedly in the difficult
direction as he had held it in the easier one. Thus, with a steady step, the traveller
went up and down, up and down, up and down, seeking nothing and finding it.
A
place replete with shadowy shapes, this Mugby Junction in the black hours of the
four-and-twenty. Mysterious goods trains, covered with palls and gliding on like
vast weird funerals, conveying themselves guiltily away from the presence of the
few lighted lamps, as if their freight had come to a secret and unlawful end.
Half-miles of coal pursuing in a Detective manner, following when they lead, stopping
when they stop, backing when they back. Red-hot embers showering out upon the
ground, down this dark avenue, and down the other, as if torturing fires were
being raked clear; concurrently, shrieks and groans and grinds invading the ear,
as if the tortured were at the height of their suffering. Iron-barred cages full
of cattle jangling by midway, the drooping beasts with horns entangled, eyes frozen
with terror, and mouths too: at least they have long icicles (or what seem so)
hanging from their lips. Unknown languages in the air, conspiring in red, green,
and white characters. An earthquake, accompanied with thunder and lightning, going
up express to London. Now, all quiet, all rusty, wind and rain in possession,
lamps extinguished, Mugby Junction dead and indistinct, with its robe drawn over
its head, like Caesar.
Now,
too, as the belated traveller plodded up and down, a shadowy train went by him
in the gloom which was no other than the train of a life. From whatsoever intangible
deep cutting or dark tunnel it emerged, here it came, unsummoned and unannounced,
stealing upon him, and passing away into obscurity. Here mournfully went by a
child who had never had a childhood or known a parent, inseparable from a youth
with a bitter sense of his namelessness, coupled to a man the enforced business
of whose best years had been distasteful and oppressive, linked to an ungrateful
friend, dragging after him a woman once beloved. Attendant, with many a clank
and wrench, were lumbering cares, dark meditations, huge dim disappointments,
monotonous years, a long jarring line of the discords of a solitary and unhappy
existence.
"--Yours,
sir?"
The
traveller recalled his eyes from the waste into which they had been staring, and
fell back a step or so under the abruptness, and perhaps the chance appropriateness,
of the question.
"Oh!
My thoughts were not here for the moment. Yes. Yes. Those two portmanteaus are
mine. Are you a Porter?"
"On
Porter's wages, sir. But I am Lamps."
The
traveller looked a little confused.
"Who
did you say you are?"
"Lamps,
sir," showing an oily cloth in his hand, as farther explanation.
"Surely,
surely. Is there any hotel or tavern here?"
"Not
exactly here, sir. There is a Refreshment Room here, but--" Lamps, with a mighty
serious look, gave his head a warning roll that plainly added--"but it's a blessed
circumstance for you that it's not open."
"You
couldn't recommend it, I see, if it was available?"
"Ask
your pardon, sir. If it was -?"
"Open?"
"It
ain't my place, as a paid servant of the company, to give my opinion on any of
the company's toepics,"--he pronounced it more like toothpicks,--"beyond lamp-ile
and cottons," returned Lamps in a confidential tone; "but, speaking as a man,
I wouldn't recommend my father (if he was to come to life again) to go and try
how he'd be treated at the Refreshment Room. Not speaking as a man, no, I would
NOT."
The
traveller nodded conviction. "I suppose I can put up in the town? There is a town
here?" For the traveller (though a stay-at- home compared with most travellers)
had been, like many others, carried on the steam winds and the iron tides through
that Junction before, without having ever, as one might say, gone ashore there.
"Oh
yes, there's a town, sir! Anyways, there's town enough to put up in. But," following
the glance of the other at his luggage, "this is a very dead time of the night
with us, sir. The deadest time. I might a'most call it our deadest and buriedest
time."
"No
porters about?"
"Well,
sir, you see," returned Lamps, confidential again, "they in general goes off with
the gas. That's how it is. And they seem to have overlooked you, through your
walking to the furder end of the platform. But, in about twelve minutes or so,
she may be up."
"Who
may be up?"
"The
three forty-two, sir. She goes off in a sidin' till the Up X passes, and then
she"--here an air of hopeful vagueness pervaded Lamps--"does all as lays in her
power."
"I
doubt if I comprehend the arrangement."
"I
doubt if anybody do, sir. She's a Parliamentary, sir. And, you see, a Parliamentary,
or a Skirmishun--"
"Do
you mean an Excursion?"
"That's
it, sir.--A Parliamentary or a Skirmishun, she mostly DOES go off into a sidin'.
But, when she CAN get a chance, she's whistled out of it, and she's whistled up
into doin' all as,"--Lamps again wore the air of a highly sanguine man who hoped
for the best,- -"all as lays in her power."
He
then explained that the porters on duty, being required to be in attendance on
the Parliamentary matron in question, would doubtless turn up with the gas. In
the meantime, if the gentleman would not very much object to the smell of lamp-oil,
and would accept the warmth of his little room - The gentleman, being by this
time very cold, instantly closed with the proposal.
A
greasy little cabin it was, suggestive, to the sense of smell, of a cabin in a
Whaler. But there was a bright fire burning in its rusty grate, and on the floor
there stood a wooden stand of newly trimmed and lighted lamps, ready for carriage
service. They made a bright show, and their light, and the warmth, accounted for
the popularity of the room, as borne witness to by many impressions of velveteen
trousers on a form by the fire, and many rounded smears and smudges of stooping
velveteen shoulders on the adjacent wall. Various untidy shelves accommodated
a quantity of lamps and oil- cans, and also a fragrant collection of what looked
like the pocket- handkerchiefs of the whole lamp family.
As
Barbox Brothers (so to call the traveller on the warranty of his luggage) took
his seat upon the form, and warmed his now ungloved hands at the fire, he glanced
aside at a little deal desk, much blotched with ink, which his elbow touched.
Upon it were some scraps of coarse paper, and a superannuated steel pen in very
reduced and gritty circumstances.
From
glancing at the scraps of paper, he turned involuntarily to his host, and said,
with some roughness:
"Why,
you are never a poet, man?"
Lamps
had certainly not the conventional appearance of one, as he stood modestly rubbing
his squab nose with a handkerchief so exceedingly oily, that he might have been
in the act of mistaking himself for one of his charges. He was a spare man of
about the Barbox Brothers time of life, with his features whimsically drawn upward
as if they were attracted by the roots of his hair. He had a peculiarly shining
transparent complexion, probably occasioned by constant oleaginous application;
and his attractive hair, being cut short, and being grizzled, and standing straight
up on end as if it in its turn were attracted by some invisible magnet above it,
the top of his head was not very unlike a lamp-wick.
"But,
to be sure, it's no business of mine," said Barbox Brothers. "That was an impertinent
observation on my part. Be what you like."
"Some
people, sir," remarked Lamps in a tone of apology, "are sometimes what they don't
like."
"Nobody
knows that better than I do," sighed the other. "I have been what I don't like,
all my life."
"When
I first took, sir," resumed Lamps, "to composing little Comic- Songs--like--"
Barbox
Brothers eyed him with great disfavour.
"--To
composing little Comic-Songs-like--and what was more hard--to singing 'em afterwards,"
said Lamps, "it went against the grain at that time, it did indeed."
Something
that was not all oil here shining in Lamps's eye, Barbox Brothers withdrew his
own a little disconcerted, looked at the fire, and put a foot on the top bar.
"Why did you do it, then?" he asked after a short pause; abruptly enough, but
in a softer tone. "If you didn't want to do it, why did you do it? Where did you
sing them? Public-house?"
To
which Mr. Lamps returned the curious reply: "Bedside."
At
this moment, while the traveller looked at him for elucidation, Mugby Junction
started suddenly, trembled violently, and opened its gas eyes. "She's got up!"
Lamps announced, excited. "What lays in her power is sometimes more, and sometimes
less; but it's laid in her power to get up to-night, by George!"
The
legend "Barbox Brothers," in large white letters on two black surfaces, was very
soon afterwards trundling on a truck through a silent street, and, when the owner
of the legend had shivered on the pavement half an hour, what time the porter's
knocks at the Inn Door knocked up the whole town first, and the Inn last, he groped
his way into the close air of a shut-up house, and so groped between the sheets
of a shut-up bed that seemed to have been expressly refrigerated for him when
last made.
II
"You
remember me, Young Jackson?"
"What
do I remember if not you? You are my first remembrance. It was you who told me
that was my name. It was you who told me that on every twentieth of December my
life had a penitential anniversary in it called a birthday. I suppose the last
communication was truer than the first!"
"What
am I like, Young Jackson?"
"You
are like a blight all through the year to me. You hard-lined, thin-lipped, repressive,
changeless woman with a wax mask on. You are like the Devil to me; most of all
when you teach me religious things, for you make me abhor them."
"You
remember me, Mr. Young Jackson?" In another voice from another quarter.
"Most
gratefully, sir. You were the ray of hope and prospering ambition in my life.
When I attended your course, I believed that I should come to be a great healer,
and I felt almost happy--even though I was still the one boarder in the house
with that horrible mask, and ate and drank in silence and constraint with the
mask before me, every day. As I had done every, every, every day, through my school-time
and from my earliest recollection."
"What
am I like, Mr. Young Jackson?"
"You
are like a Superior Being to me. You are like Nature beginning to reveal herself
to me. I hear you again, as one of the hushed crowd of young men kindling under
the power of your presence and knowledge, and you bring into my eyes the only
exultant tears that ever stood in them."
"You
remember Me, Mr. Young Jackson?" In a grating voice from quite another quarter.
"Too
well. You made your ghostly appearance in my life one day, and announced that
its course was to be suddenly and wholly changed. You showed me which was my wearisome
seat in the Galley of Barbox Brothers. (When THEY were, if they ever were, is
unknown to me; there was nothing of them but the name when I bent to the oar.)
You told me what I was to do, and what to be paid; you told me afterwards, at
intervals of years, when I was to sign for the Firm, when I became a partner,
when I became the Firm. I know no more of it, or of myself."
"What
am I like, Mr. Young Jackson?"
"You
are like my father, I sometimes think. You are hard enough and cold enough so
to have brought up an acknowledged son. I see your scanty figure, your close brown
suit, and your tight brown wig; but you, too, wear a wax mask to your death. You
never by a chance remove it--it never by a chance falls off--and I know no more
of you."
Throughout
this dialogue, the traveller spoke to himself at his window in the morning, as
he had spoken to himself at the Junction overnight. And as he had then looked
in the darkness, a man who had turned grey too soon, like a neglected fire: so
he now looked in the sun-light, an ashier grey, like a fire which the brightness
of the sun put out.
The
firm of Barbox Brothers had been some offshoot or irregular branch of the Public
Notary and bill-broking tree. It had gained for itself a griping reputation before
the days of Young Jackson, and the reputation had stuck to it and to him. As he
had imperceptibly come into possession of the dim den up in the corner of a court
off Lombard Street, on whose grimy windows the inscription Barbox Brothers had
for many long years daily interposed itself between him and the sky, so he had
insensibly found himself a personage held in chronic distrust, whom it was essential
to screw tight to every transaction in which he engaged, whose word was never
to be taken without his attested bond, whom all dealers with openly set up guards
and wards against. This character had come upon him through no act of his own.
It was as if the original Barbox had stretched himself down upon the office floor,
and had thither caused to be conveyed Young Jackson in his sleep, and had there
effected a metempsychosis and exchange of persons with him. The discovery-- aided
in its turn by the deceit of the only woman he had ever loved, and the deceit
of the only friend he had ever made: who eloped from him to be married together--the
discovery, so followed up, completed what his earliest rearing had begun. He shrank,
abashed, within the form of Barbox, and lifted up his head and heart no more.
But
he did at last effect one great release in his condition. He broke the oar he
had plied so long, and he scuttled and sank the galley. He prevented the gradual
retirement of an old conventional business from him, by taking the initiative
and retiring from it. With enough to live on (though, after all, with not too
much), he obliterated the firm of Barbox Brothers from the pages of the Post-
Office Directory and the face of the earth, leaving nothing of it but its name
on two portmanteaus.
"For
one must have some name in going about, for people to pick up," he explained to
Mugby High Street, through the Inn window, "and that name at least was real once.
Whereas, Young Jackson!--Not to mention its being a sadly satirical misnomer for
Old Jackson."
He
took up his hat and walked out, just in time to see, passing along on the opposite
side of the way, a velveteen man, carrying his day's dinner in a small bundle
that might have been larger without suspicion of gluttony, and pelting away towards
the Junction at a great pace.
"There's
Lamps!" said Barbox Brothers. "And by the bye--"
Ridiculous,
surely, that a man so serious, so self-contained, and not yet three days emancipated
from a routine of drudgery, should stand rubbing his chin in the street, in a
brown study about Comic Songs.
"Bedside?"
said Barbox Brothers testily. "Sings them at the bedside? Why at the bedside,
unless he goes to bed drunk? Does, I shouldn't wonder. But it's no business of
mine. Let me see. Mugby Junction, Mugby Junction. Where shall I go next? As it
came into my head last night when I woke from an uneasy sleep in the carriage
and found myself here, I can go anywhere from here. Where shall I go? I'll go
and look at the Junction by daylight. There's no hurry, and I may like the look
of one Line better than another."
But
there were so many Lines. Gazing down upon them from a bridge at the Junction,
it was as if the concentrating Companies formed a great Industrial Exhibition
of the works of extraordinary ground spiders that spun iron. And then so many
of the Lines went such wonderful ways, so crossing and curving among one another,
that the eye lost them. And then some of them appeared to start with the fixed
intention of going five hundred miles, and all of a sudden gave it up at an insignificant
barrier, or turned off into a workshop. And then others, like intoxicated men,
went a little way very straight, and surprisingly slued round and came back again.
And then others were so chock-full of trucks of coal, others were so blocked with
trucks of casks, others were so gorged with trucks of ballast, others were so
set apart for wheeled objects like immense iron cotton-reels: while others were
so bright and clear, and others were so delivered over to rust and ashes and idle
wheelbarrows out of work, with their legs in the air (looking much like their
masters on strike), that there was no beginning, middle, or end to the bewilderment.
Barbox
Brothers stood puzzled on the bridge, passing his right hand across the lines
on his forehead, which multiplied while he looked down, as if the railway Lines
were getting themselves photographed on that sensitive plate. Then was heard a
distant ringing of bells and blowing of whistles. Then, puppet-looking heads of
men popped out of boxes in perspective, and popped in again. Then, prodigious
wooden razors, set up on end, began shaving the atmosphere. Then, several locomotive
engines in several directions began to scream and be agitated. Then, along one
avenue a train came in. Then, along another two trains appeared that didn't come
in, but stopped without. Then, bits of trains broke off. Then, a struggling horse
became involved with them. Then, the locomotives shared the bits of trains, and
ran away with the whole.
"I
have not made my next move much clearer by this. No hurry. No need to make up
my mind to-day, or to-morrow, nor yet the day after. I'll take a walk."
It
fell out somehow (perhaps he meant it should) that the walk tended to the platform
at which he had alighted, and to Lamps's room. But Lamps was not in his room.
A pair of velveteen shoulders were adapting themselves to one of the impressions
on the wall by Lamps's fireplace, but otherwise the room was void. In passing
back to get out of the station again, he learnt the cause of this vacancy, by
catching sight of Lamps on the opposite line of railway, skipping along the top
of a train, from carriage to carriage, and catching lighted namesakes thrown up
to him by a coadjutor.
"He
is busy. He has not much time for composing or singing Comic Songs this morning,
I take it."
The
direction he pursued now was into the country, keeping very near to the side of
one great Line of railway, and within easy view of others. "I have half a mind,"'
he said, glancing around, "to settle the question from this point, by saying,
'I'll take this set of rails, or that, or t'other, and stick to it.' They separate
themselves from the confusion, out here, and go their ways."
Ascending
a gentle hill of some extent, he came to a few cottages. There, looking about
him as a very reserved man might who had never looked about him in his life before,
he saw some six or eight young children come merrily trooping and whooping from
one of the cottages, and disperse. But not until they had all turned at the little
garden-gate, and kissed their hands to a face at the upper window: a low window
enough, although the upper, for the cottage had but a story of one room above
the ground.
Now,
that the children should do this was nothing; but that they should do this to
a face lying on the sill of the open window, turned towards them in a horizontal
position, and apparently only a face, was something noticeable. He looked up at
the window again. Could only see a very fragile, though a very bright face, lying
on one cheek on the window-sill. The delicate smiling face of a girl or woman.
Framed in long bright brown hair, round which was tied a light blue band or fillet,
passing under the chin.
He
walked on, turned back, passed the window again, shyly glanced up again. No change.
He struck off by a winding branch-road at the top of the hill--which he must otherwise
have descended--kept the cottages in view, worked his way round at a distance
so as to come out once more into the main road, and be obliged to pass the cottages
again. The face still lay on the window-sill, but not so much inclined towards
him. And now there were a pair of delicate hands too. They had the action of performing
on some musical instrument, and yet it produced no sound that reached his ears.
"Mugby
Junction must be the maddest place in England," said Barbox Brothers, pursuing
his way down the hill. "The first thing I find here is a Railway Porter who composes
comic songs to sing at his bedside. The second thing I find here is a face, and
a pair of hands playing a musical instrument that DON'T play!"
The
day was a fine bright day in the early beginning of November, the air was clear
and inspiriting, and the landscape was rich in beautiful colours. The prevailing
colours in the court off Lombard Street, London city, had been few and sombre.
Sometimes, when the weather elsewhere was very bright indeed, the dwellers in
those tents enjoyed a pepper-and-salt-coloured day or two, but their atmosphere's
usual wear was slate or snuff coloured.
He
relished his walk so well that he repeated it next day. He was a little earlier
at the cottage than on the day before, and he could hear the children upstairs
singing to a regular measure, and clapping out the time with their hands.
"Still,
there is no sound of any musical instrument," he said, listening at the corner,
"and yet I saw the performing hands again as I came by. What are the children
singing? Why, good Lord, they can never be singing the multiplication table?"
They
were, though, and with infinite enjoyment. The mysterious face had a voice attached
to it, which occasionally led or set the children right. Its musical cheerfulness
was delightful. The measure at length stopped, and was succeeded by a murmuring
of young voices, and then by a short song which he made out to be about the current
month of the year, and about what work it yielded to the labourers in the fields
and farmyards. Then there was a stir of little feet, and the children came trooping
and whooping out, as on the previous day. And again, as on the previous day, they
all turned at the garden-gate, and kissed their hands--evidently to the face on
the window-sill, though Barbox Brothers from his retired post of disadvantage
at the corner could not see it.
But,
as the children dispersed, he cut off one small straggler--a brown-faced boy with
flaxen hair--and said to him:
"Come
here, little one. Tell me, whose house is that?"
The
child, with one swarthy arm held up across his eyes, half in shyness, and half
ready for defence, said from behind the inside of his elbow:
"Phoebe's."
"And
who," said Barbox Brothers, quite as much embarrassed by his part in the dialogue
as the child could possibly be by his, "is Phoebe?"
To
which the child made answer: "Why, Phoebe, of course."
The
small but sharp observer had eyed his questioner closely, and had taken his moral
measure. He lowered his guard, and rather assumed a tone with him: as having discovered
him to be an unaccustomed person in the art of polite conversation.
"Phoebe,"
said the child, "can't be anybobby else but Phoebe. Can she?"
"No,
I suppose not."
"Well,"
returned the child, "then why did you ask me?"
Deeming
it prudent to shift his ground, Barbox Brothers took up a new position.
"What
do you do there? Up there in that room where the open window is. What do you do
there?"
"Cool,"
said the child.
"Eh?"
"Co-o-ol,"
the child repeated in a louder voice, lengthening out the word with a fixed look
and great emphasis, as much as to say: "What's the use of your having grown up,
if you're such a donkey as not to understand me?"
"Ah!
School, school," said Barbox Brothers. "Yes, yes, yes. And Phoebe teaches you?"
The
child nodded.
"Good
boy."
"Tound
it out, have you?" said the child.
"Yes,
I have found it out. What would you do with twopence, if I gave it you?"
"Pend
it."
The
knock-down promptitude of this reply leaving him not a leg to stand upon, Barbox
Brothers produced the twopence with great lameness, and withdrew in a state of
humiliation.
But,
seeing the face on the window-sill as he passed the cottage, he acknowledged its
presence there with a gesture, which was not a nod, not a bow, not a removal of
his hat from his head, but was a diffident compromise between or struggle with
all three. The eyes in the face seemed amused, or cheered, or both, and the lips
modestly said: "Good-day to you, sir."
"I
find I must stick for a time to Mugby Junction," said Barbox Brothers with much
gravity, after once more stopping on his return road to look at the Lines where
they went their several ways so quietly. "I can't make up my mind yet which iron
road to take. In fact, I must get a little accustomed to the Junction before I
can decide."
So,
he announced at the Inn that he was "going to stay on for the present," and improved
his acquaintance with the Junction that night, and again next morning, and again
next night and morning: going down to the station, mingling with the people there,
looking about him down all the avenues of railway, and beginning to take an interest
in the incomings and outgoings of the trains. At first, he often put his head
into Lamps's little room, but he never found Lamps there. A pair or two of velveteen
shoulders he usually found there, stooping over the fire, sometimes in connection
with a clasped knife and a piece of bread and meat; but the answer to his inquiry,
"Where's Lamps?" was, either that he was "t'other side the line," or, that it
was his off-time, or (in the latter case) his own personal introduction to another
Lamps who was not his Lamps. However, he was not so desperately set upon seeing
Lamps now, but he bore the disappointment. Nor did he so wholly devote himself
to his severe application to the study of Mugby Junction as to neglect exercise.
On the contrary, he took a walk every day, and always the same walk. But the weather
turned cold and wet again, and the window was never open.
III
At
length, after a lapse of some days, there came another streak of fine bright hardy
autumn weather. It was a Saturday. The window was open, and the children were
gone. Not surprising, this, for he had patiently watched and waited at the corner
until they WERE gone.
"Good-day,"
he said to the face; absolutely getting his hat clear off his head this time.
"Good-day
to you, sir."
"I
am glad you have a fine sky again to look at."
"Thank
you, sir. It is kind if you."
"You
are an invalid, I fear?"
"No,
sir. I have very good health."
"But
are you not always lying down?"
"Oh
yes, I am always lying down, because I cannot sit up! But I am not an invalid."
The
laughing eyes seemed highly to enjoy his great mistake.
"Would
you mind taking the trouble to come in, sir? There is a beautiful view from this
window. And you would see that I am not at all ill--being so good as to care."
It
was said to help him, as he stood irresolute, but evidently desiring to enter,
with his diffident hand on the latch of the garden-gate. It did help him, and
he went in.
The
room up-stairs was a very clean white room with a low roof. Its only inmate lay
on a couch that brought her face to a level with the window. The couch was white
too; and her simple dress or wrapper being light blue, like the band around her
hair, she had an ethereal look, and a fanciful appearance of lying among clouds.
He felt that she instinctively perceived him to be by habit a downcast taciturn
man; it was another help to him to have established that understanding so easily,
and got it over.
There
was an awkward constraint upon him, nevertheless, as he touched her hand, and
took a chair at the side of her couch.
"I
see now," he began, not at all fluently, "how you occupy your hand. Only seeing
you from the path outside, I thought you were playing upon something."
She
was engaged in very nimbly and dexterously making lace. A lace- pillow lay upon
her breast; and the quick movements and changes of her hands upon it, as she worked,
had given them the action he had misinterpreted.
"That
is curious," she answered with a bright smile. "For I often fancy, myself, that
I play tunes while I am at work."
"Have
you any musical knowledge?"
She
shook her head.
"I
think I could pick out tunes, if I had any instrument, which could be made as
handy to me as my lace-pillow. But I dare say I deceive myself. At all events,
I shall never know."
"You
have a musical voice. Excuse me; I have heard you sing."
"With
the children?" she answered, slightly colouring. "Oh yes. I sing with the dear
children, if it can be called singing."
Barbox
Brothers glanced at the two small forms in the room, and hazarded the speculation
that she was fond of children, and that she was learned in new systems of teaching
them?
"Very
fond of them," she said, shaking her head again; "but I know nothing of teaching,
beyond the interest I have in it, and the pleasure it gives me when they learn.
Perhaps your overhearing my little scholars sing some of their lessons has led
you so far astray as to think me a grand teacher? Ah! I thought so! No, I have
only read and been told about that system. It seemed so pretty and pleasant, and
to treat them so like the merry Robins they are, that I took up with it in my
little way. You don't need to be told what a very little way mine is, sir," she
added with a glance at the small forms and round the room.
All
this time her hands were busy at her lace-pillow. As they still continued so,
and as there was a kind of substitute for conversation in the click and play of
its pegs, Barbox Brothers took the opportunity of observing her. He guessed her
to be thirty. The charm of her transparent face and large bright brown eyes was,
not that they were passively resigned, but that they were actively and thoroughly
cheerful. Even her busy hands, which of their own thinness alone might have besought
compassion, plied their task with a gay courage that made mere compassion an unjustifiable
assumption of superiority, and an impertinence.
He
saw her eyes in the act of rising towards his, and he directed his towards the
prospect, saying: "Beautiful, indeed!"
"Most
beautiful, sir. I have sometimes had a fancy that I would like to sit up, for
once, only to try how it looks to an erect head. But what a foolish fancy that
would be to encourage! It cannot look more lovely to any one than it does to me."
Her
eyes were turned to it, as she spoke, with most delighted admiration and enjoyment.
There was not a trace in it of any sense of deprivation.
"And
those threads of railway, with their puffs of smoke and steam changing places
so fast, make it so lively for me," she went on. "I think of the number of people
who can go where they wish, on their business, or their pleasure; I remember that
the puffs make signs to me that they are actually going while I look; and that
enlivens the prospect with abundance of company, if I want company. There is the
great Junction, too. I don't see it under the foot of the hill, but I can very
often hear it, and I always know it is there. It seems to join me, in a way, to
I don't know how many places and things that I shall never see."
With
an abashed kind of idea that it might have already joined himself to something
he had never seen, he said constrainedly: "Just so."
"And
so you see, sir," pursued Phoebe, "I am not the invalid you thought me, and I
am very well off indeed."
"You
have a happy disposition," said Barbox Brothers: perhaps with a slight excusatory
touch for his own disposition.
"Ah!
But you should know my father," she replied. "His is the happy disposition!--Don't
mind, sir!" For his reserve took the alarm at a step upon the stairs, and he distrusted
that he would be set down for a troublesome intruder. "This is my father coming."
The
door opened, and the father paused there.
"Why,
Lamps!" exclaimed Barbox Brothers, starting from his chair. "How do you do, Lamps?"
To
which Lamps responded: "The gentleman for Nowhere! How do you DO, sir?"
And
they shook hands, to the greatest admiration and surprise of Lamp's daughter.
"I
have looked you up half-a-dozen times since that night," said Barbox Brothers,
"but have never found you."
"So
I've heerd on, sir, so I've heerd on," returned Lamps. "It's your being noticed
so often down at the Junction, without taking any train, that has begun to get
you the name among us of the gentleman for Nowhere. No offence in my having called
you by it when took by surprise, I hope, sir?"
"None
at all. It's as good a name for me as any other you could call me by. But may
I ask you a question in the corner here?"
Lamps
suffered himself to be led aside from his daughter's couch by one of the buttons
of his velveteen jacket.
"Is
this the bedside where you sing your songs?"
Lamps
nodded.
The
gentleman for Nowhere clapped him on the shoulder, and they faced about again.
"Upon
my word, my dear," said Lamps then to his daughter, looking from her to her visitor,
"it is such an amaze to me, to find you brought acquainted with this gentleman,
that I must (if this gentleman will excuse me) take a rounder."
Mr.
Lamps demonstrated in action what this meant, by pulling out his oily handkerchief
rolled up in the form of a ball, and giving himself an elaborate smear, from behind
the right ear, up the cheek, across the forehead, and down the other cheek to
behind his left ear. After this operation he shone exceedingly.
"It's
according to my custom when particular warmed up by any agitation, sir," he offered
by way of apology. "And really, I am throwed into that state of amaze by finding
you brought acquainted with Phoebe, that I--that I think I will, if you'll excuse
me, take another rounder." Which he did, seeming to be greatly restored by it.
They
were now both standing by the side of her couch, and she was working at her lace-pillow.
"Your daughter tells me," said Barbox Brothers, still in a half-reluctant shamefaced
way, "that she never sits up."
"No,
sir, nor never has done. You see, her mother (who died when she was a year and
two months old) was subject to very bad fits, and as she had never mentioned to
me that she WAS subject to fits, they couldn't be guarded against. Consequently,
she dropped the baby when took, and this happened."
"It
was very wrong of her," said Barbox Brothers with a knitted brow, "to marry you,
making a secret of her infirmity.'
"Well,
sir!" pleaded Lamps in behalf of the long-deceased. "You see, Phoebe and me, we
have talked that over too. And Lord bless us! Such a number on us has our infirmities,
what with fits, and what with misfits, of one sort and another, that if we confessed
to 'em all before we got married, most of us might never get married."
"Might
not that be for the better?"
"Not
in this case, sir," said Phoebe, giving her hand to her father.
"No,
not in this case, sir," said her father, patting it between his own.
"You
correct me," returned Barbox Brothers with a blush; "and I must look so like a
Brute, that at all events it would be superfluous in me to confess to THAT infirmity.
I wish you would tell me a little more about yourselves. I hardly knew how to
ask it of you, for I am conscious that I have a bad stiff manner, a dull discouraging
way with me, but I wish you would."
"With
all our hearts, sir," returned Lamps gaily for both. "And first of all, that you
may know my name--"
"Stay!"
interposed the visitor with a slight flush. "What signifies your name? Lamps is
name enough for me. I like it. It is bright and expressive. What do I want more?"
"Why,
to be sure, sir," returned Lamps. "I have in general no other name down at the
Junction; but I thought, on account of your being here as a first-class single,
in a private character, that you might--"
The
visitor waved the thought away with his hand, and Lamps acknowledged the mark
of confidence by taking another rounder.
"You
are hard-worked, I take for granted?" said Barbox Brothers, when the subject of
the rounder came out of it much dirtier than be went into it.
Lamps
was beginning, "Not particular so"--when his daughter took him up.
"Oh
yes, sir, he is very hard-worked. Fourteen, fifteen, eighteen hours a day. Sometimes
twenty-four hours at a time."
"And
you," said Barbox Brothers, "what with your school, Phoebe, and what with your
lace-making--"
"But
my school is a pleasure to me," she interrupted, opening her brown eyes wider,
as if surprised to find him so obtuse. "I began it when I was but a child, because
it brought me and other children into company, don't you see? THAT was not work.
I carry it on still, because it keeps children about me. THAT is not work. I do
it as love, not as work. Then my lace-pillow;" her busy hands had stopped, as
if her argument required all her cheerful earnestness, but now went on again at
the name; "it goes with my thoughts when I think, and it goes with my tunes when
I hum any, and THAT'S not work. Why, you yourself thought it was music, you know,
sir. And so it is to me."
"Everything
is!" cried Lamps radiantly. "Everything is music to her, sir."
"My
father is, at any rate," said Phoebe, exultingly pointing her thin forefinger
at him. "There is more music in my father than there is in a brass band."
"I
say! My dear! It's very fillyillially done, you know; but you are flattering your
father," he protested, sparkling.
"No,
I am not, sir, I assure you. No, I am not. If you could hear my father sing, you
would know I am not. But you never will hear him sing, because he never sings
to any one but me. However tired he is, he always sings to me when he comes home.
When I lay here long ago, quite a poor little broken doll, he used to sing to
me. More than that, he used to make songs, bringing in whatever little jokes we
had between us. More than that, he often does so to this day. Oh! I'll tell of
you, father, as the gentleman has asked about you. He is a poet, sir."
"I
shouldn't wish the gentleman, my dear," observed Lamps, for the moment turning
grave, "to carry away that opinion of your father, because it might look as if
I was given to asking the stars in a molloncolly manner what they was up to. Which
I wouldn't at once waste the time, and take the liberty, my dear."
"My
father," resumed Phoebe, amending her text, "is always on the bright side, and
the good side. You told me, just now, I had a happy disposition. How can I help
it?"
"Well;
but, my dear," returned Lamps argumentatively, "how can I help it? Put it to yourself
sir. Look at her. Always as you see her now. Always working--and after all, sir,
for but a very few shillings a week--always contented, always lively, always interested
in others, of all sorts. I said, this moment, she was always as you see her now.
So she is, with a difference that comes to much the same. For, when it is my Sunday
off and the morning bells have done ringing, I hear the prayers and thanks read
in the touchingest way, and I have the hymns sung to me--so soft, sir, that you
couldn't hear 'em out of this room--in notes that seem to me, I am sure, to come
from Heaven and go back to it."
It
might have been merely through the association of these words with their sacredly
quiet time, or it might have been through the larger association of the words
with the Redeemer's presence beside the bedridden; but here her dexterous fingers
came to a stop on the lace-pillow, and clasped themselves around his neck as he
bent down. There was great natural sensibility in both father and daughter, the
visitor could easily see; but each made it, for the other's sake, retiring, not
demonstrative; and perfect cheerfulness, intuitive or acquired, was either the
first or second nature of both. In a very few moments Lamps was taking another
rounder with his comical features beaming, while Phoebe's laughing eyes (just
a glistening speck or so upon their lashes) were again directed by turns to him,
and to her work, and to Barbox Brothers.
"When
my father, sir," she said brightly, "tells you about my being interested in other
people, even though they know nothing about me-- which, by the bye, I told you
myself--you ought to know how that comes about. That's my father's doing."
"No,
it isn't!" he protested.
"Don't
you believe him, sir; yes, it is. He tells me of everything he sees down at his
work. You would be surprised what a quantity he gets together for me every day.
He looks into the carriages, and tells me how the ladies are dressed--so that
I know all the fashions! He looks into the carriages, and tells me what pairs
of lovers he sees, and what new-married couples on their wedding trip-- so that
I know all about that! He collects chance newspapers and books--so that I have
plenty to read! He tells me about the sick people who are travelling to try to
get better--so that I know all about them! In short, as I began by saying, he
tells me everything he sees and makes out down at his work, and you can't think
what a quantity he does see and make out."
"As
to collecting newspapers and books, my dear," said Lamps, "it's clear I can have
no merit in that, because they're not my perquisites. You see, sir, it's this
way: A Guard, he'll say to me, 'Hallo, here you are, Lamps. I've saved this paper
for your daughter. How is she a-going on?' A Head-Porter, he'll say to me, 'Here!
Catch hold, Lamps. Here's a couple of wollumes for your daughter. Is she pretty
much where she were?' And that's what makes it double welcome, you see. If she
had a thousand pound in a box, they wouldn't trouble themselves about her; but
being what she is--that is, you understand," Lamps added, somewhat hurriedly,
"not having a thousand pound in a box--they take thought for her. And as concerning
the young pairs, married and unmarried, it's only natural I should bring home
what little I can about THEM, seeing that there's not a Couple of either sort
in the neighbourhood that don't come of their own accord to confide in Phoebe."
She
raised her eyes triumphantly to Barbox Brothers as she said:
"Indeed,
sir, that is true. If I could have got up and gone to church, I don't know how
often I should have been a bridesmaid. But, if I could have done that, some girls
in love might have been jealous of me, and, as it is, no girl is jealous of me.
And my pillow would not have been half as ready to put the piece of cake under,
as I always find it," she added, turning her face on it with a light sigh, and
a smile at her father.
The
arrival of a little girl, the biggest of the scholars, now led to an understanding
on the part of Barbox Brothers, that she was the domestic of the cottage, and
had come to take active measures in it, attended by a pail that might have extinguished
her, and a broom three times her height. He therefore rose to take his leave,
and took it; saying that, if Phoebe had no objection, he would come again.
He
had muttered that he would come "in the course of his walks." The course of his
walks must have been highly favourable to his return, for he returned after an
interval of a single day.
"You
thought you would never see me any more, I suppose?" he said to Phoebe as he touched
her hand, and sat down by her couch.
"Why
should I think so?" was her surprised rejoinder.
"I
took it for granted you would mistrust me."
"For
granted, sir? Have you been so much mistrusted?"
"I
think I am justified in answering yes. But I may have mistrusted, too, on my part.
No matter just now. We were speaking of the Junction last time. I have passed
hours there since the day before yesterday."
"Are
you now the gentleman for Somewhere?" she asked with a smile.
"Certainly
for Somewhere; but I don't yet know Where. You would never guess what I am travelling
from. Shall I tell you? I am travelling from my birthday."
Her
hands stopped in her work, and she looked at him with incredulous astonishment.
"Yes,"
said Barbox Brothers, not quite easy in his chair, "from my birthday. I am, to
myself, an unintelligible book with the earlier chapters all torn out, and thrown
away. My childhood had no grace of childhood, my youth had no charm of youth,
and what can be expected from such a lost beginning?" His eyes meeting hers as
they were addressed intently to him, something seemed to stir within his breast,
whispering: "Was this bed a place for the graces of childhood and the charms of
youth to take to kindly? Oh, shame, shame!"
"It
is a disease with me," said Barbox Brothers, checking himself, and making as though
he had a difficulty in swallowing something, "to go wrong about that. I don't
know how I came to speak of that. I hope it is because of an old misplaced confidence
in one of your sex involving an old bitter treachery. I don't know. I am all wrong
together."
Her
hands quietly and slowly resumed their work. Glancing at her, he saw that her
eyes were thoughtfully following them.
"I
am travelling from my birthday," he resumed, "because it has always been a dreary
day to me. My first free birthday coming round some five or six weeks hence, I
am travelling to put its predecessors far behind me, and to try to crush the day--or,
at all events, put it out of my sight--by heaping new objects on it."
As
he paused, she looked at him; but only shook her head as being quite at a loss.
"This
is unintelligible to your happy disposition," he pursued, abiding by his former
phrase as if there were some lingering virtue of self-defence in it. "I knew it
would be, and am glad it is. However, on this travel of mine (in which I mean
to pass the rest of my days, having abandoned all thought of a fixed home), I
stopped, as you have heard from your father, at the Junction here. The extent
of its ramifications quite confused me as to whither I should go, FROM here. I
have not yet settled, being still perplexed among so many roads. What do you think
I mean to do? How many of the branching roads can you see from your window?"
Looking
out, full of interest, she answered, "Seven."
"Seven,"
said Barbox Brothers, watching her with a grave smile. "Well! I propose to myself
at once to reduce the gross number to those very seven, and gradually to fine
them down to one--the most promising for me--and to take that."
"But
how will you know, sir, which IS the most promising?" she asked, with her brightened
eyes roving over the view.
"Ah!"
said Barbox Brothers with another grave smile, and considerably improving in his
ease of speech. "To be sure. In this way. Where your father can pick up so much
every day for a good purpose, I may once and again pick up a little for an indifferent
purpose. The gentleman for Nowhere must become still better known at the Junction.
He shall continue to explore it, until he attaches something that he has seen,
heard, or found out, at the head of each of the seven roads, to the road itself.
And so his choice of a road shall be determined by his choice among his discoveries."
Her
hands still busy, she again glanced at the prospect, as if it comprehended something
that had not been in it before, and laughed as if it yielded her new pleasure.
"But
I must not forget," said Barbox Brothers, "(having got so far) to ask a favour.
I want your help in this expedient of mine. I want to bring you what I pick up
at the heads of the seven roads that you lie here looking out at, and to compare
notes with you about it. May I? They say two heads are better than one. I should
say myself that probably depends upon the heads concerned. But I am quite sure,
though we are so newly acquainted, that your head and your father's have found
out better things, Phoebe, than ever mine of itself discovered."
She
gave him her sympathetic right hand, in perfect rapture with his proposal, and
eagerly and gratefully thanked him.
"That's
well!" said Barbox Brothers. "Again I must not forget (having got so far) to ask
a favour. Will you shut your eyes?"
Laughing
playfully at the strange nature of the request, she did so.
"Keep
them shut," said Barbox Brothers, going softly to the door, and coming back. "You
are on your honour, mind, not to open you eyes until I tell you that you may?"
"Yes!
On my honour."
"Good.
May I take your lace-pillow from you for a minute?"
Still
laughing and wondering, she removed her hands from it, and he put it aside.
"Tell
me. Did you see the puffs of smoke and steam made by the morning fast-train yesterday
on road number seven from here?"
"Behind
the elm-trees and the spire?"
"That's
the road," said Barbox Brothers, directing his eyes towards it.
"Yes.
I watched them melt away."
"Anything
unusual in what they expressed?"
"No!"
she answered merrily.
"Not
complimentary to me, for I was in that train. I went--don't open your eyes--to
fetch you this, from the great ingenious town. It is not half so large as your
lace-pillow, and lies easily and lightly in its place. These little keys are like
the keys of a miniature piano, and you supply the air required with your left
hand. May you pick out delightful music from it, my dear! For the present--you
can open your eyes now--good-bye!"
In
his embarrassed way, he closed the door upon himself, and only saw, in doing so,
that she ecstatically took the present to her bosom and caressed it. The glimpse
gladdened his heart, and yet saddened it; for so might she, if her youth had flourished
in its natural course, having taken to her breast that day the slumbering music
of her own child's voice.
CHAPTER
II--BARBOX BROTHERS AND CO.
With
good-will and earnest purpose, the gentleman for Nowhere began, on the very next
day, his researches at the heads of the seven roads. The results of his researches,
as he and Phoebe afterwards set them down in fair writing, hold their due places
in this veracious chronicle. But they occupied a much longer time in the getting
together than they ever will in the perusal. And this is probably the case with
most reading matter, except when it is of that highly beneficial kind (for Posterity)
which is "thrown off in a few moments of leisure" by the superior poetic geniuses
who scorn to take prose pains.
It
must be admitted, however, that Barbox by no means hurried himself. His heart
being in his work of good-nature, he revelled in it. There was the joy, too (it
was a true joy to him), of sometimes sitting by, listening to Phoebe as she picked
out more and more discourse from her musical instrument, and as her natural taste
and ear refined daily upon her first discoveries. Besides being a pleasure, this
was an occupation, and in the course of weeks it consumed hours. It resulted that
his dreaded birthday was close upon him before he had troubled himself any more
about it.
The
matter was made more pressing by the unforeseen circumstance that the councils
held (at which Mr. Lamps, beaming most brilliantly, on a few rare occasions assisted)
respecting the road to be selected were, after all, in nowise assisted by his
investigations. For, he had connected this interest with this road, or that interest
with the other, but could deduce no reason from it for giving any road the preference.
Consequently, when the last council was holden, that part of the business stood,
in the end, exactly where it had stood in the beginning.
"But,
sir," remarked Phoebe, "we have only six roads after all. Is the seventh road
dumb?"
"The
seventh road? Oh!" said Barbox Brothers, rubbing his chin. "That is the road I
took, you know, when I went to get your little present. That is ITS story. Phoebe."
"Would
you mind taking that road again, sir?" she asked with hesitation.
"Not
in the least; it is a great high-road after all."
"I
should like you to take it," returned Phoebe with a persuasive smile, "for the
love of that little present which must ever be so dear to me. I should like you
to take it, because that road can never be again like any other road to me. I
should like you to take it, in remembrance of your having done me so much good:
of your having made me so much happier! If you leave me by the road you travelled
when you went to do me this great kindness," sounding a faint chord as she spoke,
"I shall feel, lying here watching at my window, as if it must conduct you to
a prosperous end, and bring you back some day."
"It
shall be done, my dear; it shall be done."
So
at last the gentleman for Nowhere took a ticket for Somewhere, and his destination
was the great ingenious town.
He
had loitered so long about the Junction that it was the eighteenth of December
when he left it. "High time," he reflected, as he seated himself in the train,
"that I started in earnest! Only one clear day remains between me and the day
I am running away from. I'll push onward for the hill-country to-morrow. I'll
go to Wales."
It
was with some pains that he placed before himself the undeniable advantages to
be gained in the way of novel occupation for his senses from misty mountains,
swollen streams, rain, cold, a wild seashore, and rugged roads. And yet he scarcely
made them out as distinctly as he could have wished. Whether the poor girl, in
spite of her new resource, her music, would have any feeling of loneliness upon
her now--just at first--that she had not had before; whether she saw those very
puffs of steam and smoke that he saw, as he sat in the train thinking of her;
whether her face would have any pensive shadow on it as they died out of the distant
view from her window; whether, in telling him he had done her so much good, she
had not unconsciously corrected his old moody bemoaning of his station in life,
by setting him thinking that a man might be a great healer, if he would, and yet
not be a great doctor; these and other similar meditations got between him and
his Welsh picture. There was within him, too, that dull sense of vacuity which
follows separation from an object of interest, and cessation of a pleasant pursuit;
and this sense, being quite new to him, made him restless. Further, in losing
Mugby Junction, he had found himself again; and he was not the more enamoured
of himself for having lately passed his time in better company.
But
surely here, not far ahead, must be the great ingenious town. This crashing and
clashing that the train was undergoing, and this coupling on to it of a multitude
of new echoes, could mean nothing less than approach to the great station. It
did mean nothing less. After some stormy flashes of town lightning, in the way
of swift revelations of red brick blocks of houses, high red brick chimney- shafts,
vistas of red brick railway arches, tongues of fire, blocks of smoke, valleys
of canal, and hills if coal, there came the thundering in at the journey's end.
Having
seen his portmanteaus safely housed in the hotel he chose, and having appointed
his dinner hour, Barbox Brothers went out for a walk in the busy streets. And
now it began to be suspected by him that Mugby Junction was a Junction of many
branches, invisible as well as visible, and had joined him to an endless number
of by-ways. For, whereas he would, but a little while ago, have walked these streets
blindly brooding, he now had eyes and thoughts for a new external world. How the
many toiling people lived, and loved, and died; how wonderful it was to consider
the various trainings of eye and hand, the nice distinctions of sight and touch,
that separated them into classes of workers, and even into classes of workers
at subdivisions of one complete whole which combined their many intelligences
and forces, though of itself but some cheap object of use or ornament in common
life; how good it was to know that such assembling in a multitude on their part,
and such contribution of their several dexterities towards a civilising end, did
not deteriorate them as it was the fashion of the supercilious Mayflies of humanity
to pretend, but engendered among them a self-respect, and yet a modest desire
to be much wiser than they were (the first evinced in their well-balanced bearing
and manner of speech when he stopped to ask a question; the second, in the announcements
of their popular studies and amusements on the public walls); these considerations,
and a host of such, made his walk a memorable one. "I too am but a little part
of a great whole," he began to think; "and to be serviceable to myself and others,
or to be happy, I must cast my interest into, and draw it out of, the common stock."
Although
he had arrived at his journey's end for the day by noon, he had since insensibly
walked about the town so far and so long that the lamp-lighters were now at their
work in the streets, and the shops were sparkling up brilliantly. Thus reminded
to turn towards his quarters, he was in the act of doing so, when a very little
hand crept into his, and a very little voice said:
"Oh!
if you please, I am lost!"
He
looked down, and saw a very little fair-haired girl.
"Yes,"
she said, confirming her words with a serious nod. "I am indeed. I am lost!"
Greatly
perplexed, he stopped, looked about him for help, descried none, and said, bending
low.
"Where
do you live, my child?"
"I
don't know where I live," she returned. "I am lost."
"What
is your name?"
"Polly."
"What
is your other name?"
The
reply was prompt, but unintelligible.
Imitating
the sound as he caught it, he hazarded the guess, "Trivits."
"Oh
no!" said the child, shaking her head. "Nothing like that."
"Say
it again, little one."
An
unpromising business. For this time it had quite a different sound.
He
made the venture, " Paddens?"
"Oh
no!" said the child. "Nothing like that."
"Once
more. Let us try it again, dear."
A
most hopeless business. This time it swelled into four syllables. "It can't be
Tappitarver?" said Barbox Brothers, rubbing his head with his hat in discomfiture.
"No!
It ain't," the child quietly assented.
On
her trying this unfortunate name once more, with extraordinary efforts at distinctness,
it swelled into eight syllables at least.
"Ah!
I think," said Barbox Brothers with a desperate air of resignation, "that we had
better give it up."
"But
I am lost," said the child, nestling her little hand more closely in his, "and
you'll take care of me, won't you?"
If
ever a man were disconcerted by division between compassion on the one hand, and
the very imbecility of irresolution on the other, here the man was. "Lost!" he
repeated, looking down at the child. "I am sure I am. What is to be done?"
"Where
do you live?" asked the child, looking up at him wistfully.
"Over
there," he answered, pointing vaguely in the direction of his hotel.
"Hadn't
we better go there?" said the child.
"Really,"
he replied, "I don't know but what we had."
So
they set off, hand-in-hand. He, through comparison of himself against his little
companion, with a clumsy feeling on him as if he had just developed into a foolish
giant. She, clearly elevated in her own tiny opinion by having got him so neatly
out of his embarrassment.
"We
are going to have dinner when we get there, I suppose?" said Polly.
"Well,"
he rejoined, "I--Yes, I suppose we are."
"Do
you like your dinner?" asked the child.
"Why,
on the whole," said Barbox Brothers, "yes, I think I do."
"I
do mine," said Polly. "Have you any brothers and sisters?"
"No.
Have you?"
"Mine
are dead."
"Oh!"
said Barbox Brothers. With that absurd sense of unwieldiness of mind and body
weighing him down, he would have not known how to pursue the conversation beyond
this curt rejoinder, but that the child was always ready for him.
"What,"
she asked, turning her soft hand coaxingly in his, "are you going to do to amuse
me after dinner?"
"Upon
my soul, Polly," exclaimed Barbox Brothers, very much at a loss, "I have not the
slightest idea!"
"Then
I tell you what," said Polly. "Have you got any cards at your house?"
"Plenty,"
said Barbox Brothers in a boastful vein.
"Very
well. Then I'll build houses, and you shall look at me. You mustn't blow, you
know."
"Oh
no," said Barbox Brothers. "No, no, no. No blowing. Blowing's not fair."
He
flattered himself that he had said this pretty well for an idiotic monster; but
the child, instantly perceiving the awkwardness of his attempt to adapt himself
to her level, utterly destroyed his hopeful opinion of himself by saying compassionately:
"What a funny man you are!"
Feeling,
after this melancholy failure, as if he every minute grew bigger and heavier in
person, and weaker in mind, Barbox gave himself up for a bad job. No giant ever
submitted more meekly to be led in triumph by all-conquering Jack than he to be
bound in slavery to Polly.
"Do
you know any stories?" she asked him.
He
was reduced to the humiliating confession: "No."
"What
a dunce you must be, mustn't you?" said Polly.
He
was reduced to the humiliating confession: "Yes."
"Would
you like me to teach you a story? But you must remember it, you know, and be able
to tell it right to somebody else afterwards."
He
professed that it would afford him the highest mental gratification to be taught
a story, and that he would humbly endeavour to retain it in his mind. Whereupon
Polly, giving her hand a new little turn in his, expressive of settling down for
enjoyment, commenced a long romance, of which every relishing clause began with
the words: "So this," or, "And so this." As, "So this boy;" or, "So this fairy;"
or, "And so this pie was four yards round, and two yards and a quarter deep."
The interest of the romance was derived from the intervention of this fairy to
punish this boy for having a greedy appetite. To achieve which purpose, this fairy
made this pie, and this boy ate and ate and ate, and his cheeks swelled and swelled
and swelled. There were many tributary circumstances, but the forcible interest
culminated in the total consumption of this pie, and the bursting of this boy.
Truly he was a fine sight, Barbox Brothers, with serious attentive face, and ear
bent down, much jostled on the pavements of the busy town, but afraid of losing
a single incident of the epic, lest he should be examined in it by-and-by, and
found deficient.
Thus
they arrived at the hotel. And there he had to say at the bar, and said awkwardly
enough; "I have found a little girl!"
The
whole establishment turned out to look at the little girl. Nobody knew her; nobody
could make out her name, as she set it forth--except one chamber-maid, who said
it was Constantinople-- which it wasn't.
"I
will dine with my young friend in a private room," said Barbox Brothers to the
hotel authorities, "and perhaps you will be so good as to let the police know
that the pretty baby is here. I suppose she is sure to be inquired for soon, if
she has not been already. Come along, Polly."
Perfectly
at ease and peace, Polly came along, but, finding the stairs rather stiff work,
was carried up by Barbox Brothers. The dinner was a most transcendant success,
and the Barbox sheepishness, under Polly's directions how to mince her meat for
her, and how to diffuse gravy over the plate with a liberal and equal hand, was
another fine sight.
"And
now," said Polly, "while we are at dinner, you be good, and tell me that story
I taught you."
With
the tremors of a Civil Service examination upon him, and very uncertain indeed,
not only as to the epoch at which the pie appeared in history, but also as to
the measurements of that indispensable fact, Barbox Brothers made a shaky beginning,
but under encouragement did very fairly. There was a want of breadth observable
in his rendering of the cheeks, as well as the appetite, of the boy; and there
was a certain tameness in his fairy, referable to an under-current of desire to
account for her. Still, as the first lumbering performance of a good-humoured
monster, it passed muster.
"I
told you to be good," said Polly, "and you are good, ain't you?"
"I
hope so," replied Barbox Brothers.
Such
was his deference that Polly, elevated on a platform of sofa cushions in a chair
at his right hand, encouraged him with a pat or two on the face from the greasy
bowl of her spoon, and even with a gracious kiss. In getting on her feet upon
her chair, however, to give him this last reward, she toppled forward among the
dishes, and caused him to exclaim, as he effected her rescue: "Gracious Angels!
Whew! I thought we were in the fire, Polly!"
"What
a coward you are, ain't you?" said Polly when replaced.
"Yes,
I am rather nervous," he replied. "Whew! Don't, Polly! Don't flourish your spoon,
or you'll go over sideways. Don't tilt up your legs when you laugh, Polly, or
you'll go over backwards. Whew! Polly, Polly, Polly," said Barbox Brothers, nearly
succumbing to despair, "we are environed with dangers!"
Indeed,
he could descry no security from the pitfalls that were yawning for Polly, but
in proposing to her, after dinner, to sit upon a low stool. "I will, if you will,"
said Polly. So, as peace of mind should go before all, he begged the waiter to
wheel aside the table, bring a pack of cards, a couple of footstools, and a screen,
and close in Polly and himself before the fire, as it were in a snug room within
the room. Then, finest sight of all, was Barbox Brothers on his footstool, with
a pint decanter on the rug, contemplating Polly as she built successfully, and
growing blue in the face with holding his breath, lest he should blow the house
down.
"How
you stare, don't you?" said Polly in a houseless pause.
Detected
in the ignoble fact, he felt obliged to admit, apologetically:
"I
am afraid I was looking rather hard at you, Polly."
"Why
do you stare?" asked Polly.
"I
cannot," he murmured to himself, "recall why.--I don't know, Polly."
"You
must be a simpleton to do things and not know why, mustn't you?" said Polly.
In
spite of which reproof, he looked at the child again intently, as she bent her
head over her card structure, her rich curls shading her face. "It is impossible,"
he thought, "that I can ever have seen this pretty baby before. Can I have dreamed
of her? In some sorrowful dream?"
He
could make nothing of it. So he went into the building trade as a journeyman under
Polly, and they built three stories high, four stories high; even five.
"I
say! Who do you think is coming?" asked Polly, rubbing her eyes after tea.
He
guessed: "The waiter?"
"No,"
said Polly, "the dustman. I am getting sleepy."
A
new embarrassment for Barbox Brothers!
"I
don't think I am going to be fetched to-night," said Polly. "What do you think?"
He
thought not, either. After another quarter of an hour, the dustman not merely
impending, but actually arriving, recourse was had to the Constantinopolitan chamber-maid:
who cheerily undertook that the child should sleep in a comfortable and wholesome
room, which she herself would share.
"And
I know you will be careful, won't you," said Barbox Brothers, as a new fear dawned
upon him, "that she don't fall out of bed?"
Polly
found this so highly entertaining that she was under the necessity of clutching
him round the neck with both arms as he sat on his footstool picking up the cards,
and rocking him to and fro, with her dimpled chin on his shoulder.
"Oh,
what a coward you are, ain't you?" said Polly. "Do you fall out of bed?"
"N--not
generally, Polly."
"No
more do I."
With
that, Polly gave him a reassuring hug or two to keep him going, and then giving
that confiding mite of a hand of hers to be swallowed up in the hand of the Constantinopolitan
chamber-maid, trotted off, chattering, without a vestige of anxiety.
He
looked after her, had the screen removed and the table and chairs replaced, and
still looked after her. He paced the room for half an hour. "A most engaging little
creature, but it's not that. A most winning little voice, but it's not that. That
has much to do with it, but there is something more. How can it be that I seem
to know this child? What was it she imperfectly recalled to me when I felt her
touch in the street, and, looking down at her, saw her looking up at me?"
"Mr.
Jackson!"
With
a start he turned towards the sound of the subdued voice, and saw his answer standing
at the door.
"Oh,
Mr. Jackson, do not be severe with me! Speak a word of encouragement to me, I
beseech you."
"You
are Polly's mother."
"Yes."
Yes.
Polly herself might come to this, one day. As you see what the rose was in its
faded leaves; as you see what the summer growth of the woods was in their wintry
branches; so Polly might be traced, one day, in a careworn woman like this, with
her hair turned grey. Before him were the ashes of a dead fire that had once burned
bright. This was the woman he had loved. This was the woman he had lost. Such
had been the constancy of his imagination to her, so had Time spared her under
its withholding, that now, seeing how roughly the inexorable hand had struck her,
his soul was filled with pity and amazement.
He
led her to a chair, and stood leaning on a corner of the chimney- piece, with
his head resting on his hand, and his face half averted.
"Did
you see me in the street, and show me to your child?" he asked.
"Yes."
"Is
the little creature, then, a party to deceit?"
"I
hope there is no deceit. I said to her, 'We have lost our way, and I must try
to find mine by myself. Go to that gentleman, and tell him you are lost. You shall
be fetched by-and-by.' Perhaps you have not thought how very young she is?"
"She
is very self-reliant."
"Perhaps
because she is so young."
He
asked, after a short pause, "Why did you do this?"
"Oh,
Mr. Jackson, do you ask me? In the hope that you might see something in my innocent
child to soften your heart towards me. Not only towards me, but towards my husband."
He
suddenly turned about, and walked to the opposite end of the room. He came back
again with a slower step, and resumed his former attitude, saying:
"I
thought you had emigrated to America?"
"We
did. But life went ill with us there, and we came back."
"Do
you live in this town?"
"Yes.
I am a daily teacher of music here. My husband is a book- keeper."
"Are
you--forgive my asking--poor?"
"We
earn enough for our wants. That is not our distress. My husband is very, very
ill of a lingering disorder. He will never recover--"
"You
check yourself. If it is for want of the encouraging word you spoke of, take it
from me. I cannot forget the old time, Beatrice."
"God
bless you!" she replied with a burst of tears, and gave him her trembling hand.
"Compose
yourself. I cannot be composed if you are not, for to see you weep distresses
me beyond expression. Speak freely to me. Trust me."
She
shaded her face with her veil, and after a little while spoke calmly. Her voice
had the ring of Polly's.
"It
is not that my husband's mind is at all impaired by his bodily suffering, for
I assure you that is not the case. But in his weakness, and in his knowledge that
he is incurably ill, he cannot overcome the ascendancy of one idea. It preys upon
him, embitters every moment of his painful life, and will shorten it."
She
stopping, he said again: "Speak freely to me. Trust me."
"We
have had five children before this darling, and they all lie in their little graves.
He believes that they have withered away under a curse, and that it will blight
this child like the rest."
"Under
what curse?"
"Both
I and he have it on our conscience that we tried you very heavily, and I do not
know but that, if I were as ill as he, I might suffer in my mind as he does. This
is the constant burden:- 'I believe, Beatrice, I was the only friend that Mr.
Jackson ever cared to make, though I was so much his junior. The more influence
he acquired in the business, the higher he advanced me, and I was alone in his
private confidence. I came between him and you, and I took you from him. We were
both secret, and the blow fell when he was wholly unprepared. The anguish it caused
a man so compressed must have been terrible; the wrath it awakened inappeasable.
So, a curse came to be invoked on our poor, pretty little flowers, and they fall.'"
"And
you, Beatrice," he asked, when she had ceased to speak, and there had been a silence
afterwards, "how say you?"
"Until
within these few weeks I was afraid of you, and I believed that you would never,
never forgive."
"Until
within these few weeks," he repeated. "Have you changed your opinion of me within
these few weeks?"
"Yes."
"For
what reason?"
"I
was getting some pieces of music in a shop in this town, when, to my terror, you
came in. As I veiled my face and stood in the dark end of the shop, I heard you
explain that you wanted a musical instrument for a bedridden girl. Your voice
and manner were so softened, you showed such interest in its selection, you took
it away yourself with so much tenderness of care and pleasure, that I knew you
were a man with a most gentle heart. Oh, Mr. Jackson, Mr. Jackson, if you could
have felt the refreshing rain of tears that followed for me!"
Was
Phoebe playing at that moment on her distant couch? He seemed to hear her.
"I
inquired in the shop where you lived, but could get no information. As I had heard
you say that you were going back by the next train (but you did not say where),
I resolved to visit the station at about that time of day, as often as I could,
between my lessons, on the chance of seeing you again. I have been there very
often, but saw you no more until to-day. You were meditating as you walked the
street, but the calm expression of your face emboldened me to send my child to
you. And when I saw you bend your head to speak tenderly to her, I prayed to GOD
to forgive me for having ever brought a sorrow on it. I now pray to you to forgive
me, and to forgive my husband. I was very young, he was young too, and, in the
ignorant hardihood of such a time of life, we don't know what we do to those who
have undergone more discipline. You generous man! You good man! So to raise me
up and make nothing of my crime against you!"--for he would not see her on her
knees, and soothed her as a kind father might have soothed an erring daughter--"thank
you, bless you, thank you!"
When
he next spoke, it was after having drawn aside the window curtain and looked out
awhile. Then he only said:
"Is
Polly asleep?"
"Yes.
As I came in, I met her going away upstairs, and put her to bed myself."
"Leave
her with me for to-morrow, Beatrice, and write me your address on this leaf of
my pocket-book. In the evening I will bring her home to you--and to her father."
*
* *
"Hallo!"
cried Polly, putting her saucy sunny face in at the door next morning when breakfast
was ready: "I thought I was fetched last night?"
"So
you were, Polly, but I asked leave to keep you here for the day, and to take you
home in the evening."
"Upon
my word!" said Polly. "You are very cool, ain't you?"
However,
Polly seemed to think it a good idea, and added: "I suppose I must give you a
kiss, though you ARE cool."
The
kiss given and taken, they sat down to breakfast in a highly conversational tone.
"Of
course, you are going to amuse me?" said Polly.
"Oh,
of course!" said Barbox Brothers.
In
the pleasurable height of her anticipations, Polly found it indispensable to put
down her piece of toast, cross one of her little fat knees over the other, and
bring her little fat right hand down into her left hand with a business-like slap.
After this gathering of herself together, Polly, by that time a mere heap of dimples,
asked in a wheedling manner:
"What
are we going to do, you dear old thing?"
"Why,
I was thinking," said Barbox Brothers, "--but are you fond of horses, Polly?"
"Ponies,
I am," said Polly, "especially when their tails are long. But horses--n-no--too
big, you know."
"Well,"
pursued Barbox Brothers, in a spirit of grave mysterious confidence adapted to
the importance of the consultation, "I did see yesterday, Polly, on the walls,
pictures of two long-tailed ponies, speckled all over--"
"No,
no, NO!" cried Polly, in an ecstatic desire to linger on the charming details.
"Not speckled all over!"
"Speckled
all over. Which ponies jump through hoops--"
"No,
no, NO!" cried Polly as before. "They never jump through hoops!"
"Yes,
they do. Oh, I assure you they do! And eat pie in pinafores- -"
"Ponies
eating pie in pinafores!" said Polly. "What a story-teller you are, ain't you?"
"Upon
my honour.--And fire off guns."
(Polly
hardly seemed to see the force of the ponies resorting to fire-arms.)
"And
I was thinking," pursued the exemplary Barbox, "that if you and I were to go to
the Circus where these ponies are, it would do our constitutions good."
"Does
that mean amuse us?" inquired Polly. "What long words you do use, don't you?"
Apologetic
for having wandered out of his depth, he replied:
"That
means amuse us. That is exactly what it means. There are many other wonders besides
the ponies, and we shall see them all. Ladies and gentlemen in spangled dresses,
and elephants and lions and tigers."
Polly
became observant of the teapot, with a curled-up nose indicating some uneasiness
of mind.
"They
never get out, of course," she remarked as a mere truism.
"The
elephants and lions and tigers? Oh, dear no!"
"Oh,
dear no!" said Polly. "And of course nobody's afraid of the ponies shooting anybody."
"Not
the least in the world."
"No,
no, not the least in the world," said Polly.
"I
was also thinking," proceeded Barbox, "that if we were to look in at the toy-shop,
to choose a doll--"
"Not
dressed!" cried Polly with a clap of her hands. "No, no, NO, not dressed!"
"Full-dressed.
Together with a house, and all things necessary for housekeeping--"
Polly
gave a little scream, and seemed in danger of falling into a swoon of bliss.
"What
a darling you are!" she languidly exclaimed, leaning back in her chair. "Come
and be hugged, or I must come and hug you."
This
resplendent programme was carried into execution with the utmost rigour of the
law. It being essential to make the purchase of the doll its first feature--or
that lady would have lost the ponies--the toy-shop expedition took precedence.
Polly in the magic warehouse, with a doll as large as herself under each arm,
and a neat assortment of some twenty more on view upon the counter, did indeed
present a spectacle of indecision not quite compatible with unalloyed happiness,
but the light cloud passed. The lovely specimen oftenest chosen, oftenest rejected,
and finally abided by, was of Circassian descent, possessing as much boldness
of beauty as was reconcilable with extreme feebleness of mouth, and combining
a sky-blue silk pelisse with rose-coloured satin trousers, and a black velvet
hat: which this fair stranger to our northern shores would seem to have founded
on the portraits of the late Duchess of Kent. The name this distinguished foreigner
brought with her from beneath the glowing skies of a sunny clime was (on Polly's
authority) Miss Melluka, and the costly nature of her outfit as a housekeeper,
from the Barbox coffers, may be inferred from the two facts that her silver tea-spoons
were as large as her kitchen poker, and that the proportions of her watch exceeded
those of her frying-pan. Miss Melluka was graciously pleased to express her entire
approbation of the Circus, and so was Polly; for the ponies were speckled, and
brought down nobody when they fired, and the savagery of the wild beasts appeared
to be mere smoke--which article, in fact, they did produce in large quantities
from their insides. The Barbox absorption in the general subject throughout the
realisation of these delights was again a sight to see, nor was it less worthy
to behold at dinner, when he drank to Miss Melluka, tied stiff in a chair opposite
to Polly (the fair Circassian possessing an unbendable spine), and even induced
the waiter to assist in carrying out with due decorum the prevailing glorious
idea. To wind up, there came the agreeable fever of getting Miss Melluka and all
her wardrobe and rich possessions into a fly with Polly, to be taken home. But,
by that time, Polly had become unable to look upon such accumulated joys with
waking eyes, and had withdrawn her consciousness into the wonderful Paradise of
a child's sleep. "Sleep, Polly, sleep," said Barbox Brothers, as her head dropped
on his shoulder; "you shall not fall out of this bed easily, at any rate!"
What
rustling piece of paper he took from his pocket, and carefully folded into the
bosom of Polly's frock, shall not be mentioned. He said nothing about it, and
nothing shall be said about it. They drove to a modest suburb of the great ingenious
town, and stopped at the fore-court of a small house. "Do not wake the child,"
said Barbox Brothers softly to the driver; "I will carry her in as she is."
Greeting
the light at the opened door which was held by Polly's mother, Polly's bearer
passed on with mother and child in to a ground-floor room. There, stretched on
a sofa, lay a sick man, sorely wasted, who covered his eyes with his emaciated
hand.
"Tresham,"
said Barbox in a kindly voice, "I have brought you back your Polly, fast asleep.
Give me your hand, and tell me you are better."
The
sick man reached forth his right hand, and bowed his head over the hand into which
it was taken, and kissed it. "Thank you, thank you! I may say that I am well and
happy."
"That's
brave," said Barbox. "Tresham, I have a fancy--Can you make room for me beside
you here?"
He
sat down on the sofa as he said the words, cherishing the plump peachey cheek
that lay uppermost on his shoulder.
"I
have a fancy, Tresham (I am getting quite an old fellow now, you know, and old
fellows may take fancies into their heads sometimes), to give up Polly, having
found her, to no one but you. Will you take her from me?"
As
the father held out his arms for the child, each of the two men looked steadily
at the other.
"She
is very dear to you, Tresham?"
"Unutterably
dear."
"God
bless her! It is not much, Polly," he continued, turning his eyes upon her peaceful
face as he apostrophized her, "it is not much, Polly, for a blind and sinful man
to invoke a blessing on something so far better than himself as a little child
is; but it would be much--much upon his cruel head, and much upon his guilty soul--if
he could be so wicked as to invoke a curse. He had better have a millstone round
his neck, and be cast into the deepest sea. Live and thrive, my pretty baby!"
Here he kissed her. "Live and prosper, and become in time the mother of other
little children, like the Angels who behold The Father's face!"
He
kissed her again, gave her up gently to both her parents, and went out.
But
he went not to Wales. No, he never went to Wales. He went straightway for another
stroll about the town, and he looked in upon the people at their work, and at
their play, here, there, every- there, and where not. For he was Barbox Brothers
and Co. now, and had taken thousands of partners into the solitary firm.
He
had at length got back to his hotel room, and was standing before his fire refreshing
himself with a glass of hot drink which he had stood upon the chimney-piece, when
he heard the town clocks striking, and, referring to his watch, found the evening
to have so slipped away, that they were striking twelve. As he put up his watch
again, his eyes met those of his reflection in the chimney- glass.
"Why,
it's your birthday already," he said, smiling. "You are looking very well. I wish
you many happy returns of the day."
He
had never before bestowed that wish upon himself. "By Jupiter!" he discovered,
"it alters the whole case of running away from one's birthday! It's a thing to
explain to Phoebe. Besides, here is quite a long story to tell her, that has sprung
out of the road with no story. I'll go back, instead of going on. I'll go back
by my friend Lamps's Up X presently."
He
went back to Mugby Junction, and, in point of fact, he established himself at
Mugby Junction. It was the convenient place to live in, for brightening Phoebe's
life. It was the convenient place to live in, for having her taught music by Beatrice.
It was the convenient place to live in, for occasionally borrowing Polly. It was
the convenient place to live in, for being joined at will to all sorts of agreeable
places and persons. So, he became settled there, and, his house standing in an
elevated situation, it is noteworthy of him in conclusion, as Polly herself might
(not irreverently) have put it:
"There
was an Old Barbox who lived on a hill, And if he ain't gone, he lives there still."
Here
follows the substance of what was seen, heard, or otherwise picked up, by the
gentleman for Nowhere, in his careful study of the Junction.
CHAPTER
III--THE BOY AT MUGBY
I
am the boy at Mugby. That's about what I am.
You
don't know what I mean? What a pity! But I think you do. I think you must. Look
here. I am the boy at what is called The Refreshment Room at Mugby Junction, and
what's proudest boast is, that it never yet refreshed a mortal being.
Up
in a corner of the Down Refreshment Room at Mugby Junction, in the height of twenty-seven
cross draughts (I've often counted 'em while they brush the First-Class hair twenty-seven
ways), behind the bottles, among the glasses, bounded on the nor'west by the beer,
stood pretty far to the right of a metallic object that's at times the tea-urn
and at times the soup-tureen, according to the nature of the last twang imparted
to its contents which are the same groundwork, fended off from the traveller by
a barrier of stale sponge-cakes erected atop of the counter, and lastly exposed
sideways to the glare of Our Missis's eye--you ask a Boy so sitiwated, next time
you stop in a hurry at Mugby, for anything to drink; you take particular notice
that he'll try to seem not to hear you, that he'll appear in a absent manner to
survey the Line through a transparent medium composed of your head and body, and
that he won't serve you as long as you can possibly bear it. That's me.
What
a lark it is! We are the Model Establishment, we are, at Mugby. Other Refreshment
Rooms send their imperfect young ladies up to be finished off by our Missis. For
some of the young ladies, when they're new to the business, come into it mild!
Ah! Our Missis, she soon takes that out of 'em. Why, I originally come into the
business meek myself. But Our Missis, she soon took that out of ME.
What
a delightful lark it is! I look upon us Refreshmenters as ockipying the only proudly
independent footing on the Line. There's Papers, for instance,--my honourable
friend, if he will allow me to call him so,--him as belongs to Smith's bookstall.
Why, he no more dares to be up to our Refreshmenting games than he dares to jump
a top of a locomotive with her steam at full pressure, and cut away upon her alone,
driving himself, at limited-mail speed. Papers, he'd get his head punched at every
compartment, first, second, and third, the whole length of a train, if he was
to ventur to imitate my demeanour. It's the same with the porters, the same with
the guards, the same with the ticket clerks, the same the whole way up to the
secretary, traffic-manager, or very chairman. There ain't a one among 'em on the
nobly independent footing we are. Did you ever catch one of them, when you wanted
anything of him, making a system of surveying the Line through a transparent medium
composed of your head and body? I should hope not.
You
should see our Bandolining Room at Mugby Junction. It's led to by the door behind
the counter, which you'll notice usually stands ajar, and it's the room where
Our Missis and our young ladies Bandolines their hair. You should see 'em at it,
betwixt trains, Bandolining away, as if they was anointing themselves for the
combat. When you're telegraphed, you should see their noses all a- going up with
scorn, as if it was a part of the working of the same Cooke and Wheatstone electrical
machinery. You should hear Our Missis give the word, "Here comes the Beast to
be Fed!" and then you should see 'em indignantly skipping across the Line, from
the Up to the Down, or Wicer Warsaw, and begin to pitch the stale pastry into
the plates, and chuck the sawdust sangwiches under the glass covers, and get out
the--ha, ha, ha!--the sherry,--O my eye, my eye!--for your Refreshment.
It's
only in the Isle of the Brave and Land of the Free (by which, of course, I mean
to say Britannia) that Refreshmenting is so effective, so 'olesome, so constitutional
a check upon the public. There was a Foreigner, which having politely, with his
hat off, beseeched our young ladies and Our Missis for "a leetel gloss host prarndee,"
and having had the Line surveyed through him by all and no other acknowledgment,
was a-proceeding at last to help himself, as seems to be the custom in his own
country, when Our Missis, with her hair almost a-coming un-Bandolined with rage,
and her eyes omitting sparks, flew at him, cotched the decanter out of his hand,
and said, "Put it down! I won't allow that!" The foreigner turned pale, stepped
back with his arms stretched out in front of him, his hands clasped, and his shoulders
riz, and exclaimed: "Ah! Is it possible, this! That these disdaineous females
and this ferocious old woman are placed here by the administration, not only to
empoison the voyagers, but to affront them! Great Heaven! How arrives it? The
English people. Or is he then a slave? Or idiot?" Another time, a merry, wideawake
American gent had tried the sawdust and spit it out, and had tried the Sherry
and spit that out, and had tried in vain to sustain exhausted natur upon Butter-Scotch,
and had been rather extra Bandolined and Line-surveyed through, when, as the bell
was ringing and he paid Our Missis, he says, very loud and good-tempered: "I tell
Yew what 'tis, ma'arm. I la'af. Theer! I la'af. I Dew. I oughter ha' seen most
things, for I hail from the Onlimited side of the Atlantic Ocean, and I haive
travelled right slick over the Limited, head on through Jeerusalemm and the East,
and likeways France and Italy, Europe Old World, and am now upon the track to
the Chief Europian Village; but such an Institution as Yew, and Yewer young ladies,
and Yewer fixin's solid and liquid, afore the glorious Tarnal I never did see
yet! And if I hain't found the eighth wonder of monarchical Creation, in finding
Yew and Yewer young ladies, and Yewer fixin's solid and liquid, all as aforesaid,
established in a country where the people air not absolute Loo- naticks, I am
Extra Double Darned with a Nip and Frizzle to the innermostest grit! Wheerfur--Theer!--I
la'af! I Dew, ma'arm. I la'af!" And so he went, stamping and shaking his sides,
along the platform all the way to his own compartment.
I
think it was her standing up agin the Foreigner as giv' Our Missis the idea of
going over to France, and droring a comparison betwixt Refreshmenting as followed
among the frog-eaters, and Refreshmenting as triumphant in the Isle of the Brave
and Land of the Free (by which, of course, I mean to say agin, Britannia). Our
young ladies, Miss Whiff, Miss Piff, and Mrs. Sniff, was unanimous opposed to
her going; for, as they says to Our Missis one and all, it is well beknown to
the hends of the herth as no other nation except Britain has a idea of anythink,
but above all of business. Why then should you tire yourself to prove what is
already proved? Our Missis, however (being a teazer at all pints) stood out grim
obstinate, and got a return pass by Southeastern Tidal, to go right through, if
such should be her dispositions, to Marseilles.
Sniff
is husband to Mrs. Sniff, and is a regular insignificant cove. He looks arter
the sawdust department in a back room, and is sometimes, when we are very hard
put to it, let behind the counter with a corkscrew; but never when it can be helped,
his demeanour towards the public being disgusting servile. How Mrs. Sniff ever
come so far to lower herself as to marry him, I don't know; but I suppose he does,
and I should think he wished he didn't, for he leads a awful life. Mrs. Sniff
couldn't be much harder with him if he was public. Similarly, Miss Whiff and Miss
Piff, taking the tone of Mrs. Sniff, they shoulder Sniff about when he IS let
in with a corkscrew, and they whisk things out of his hands when in his servility
he is a-going to let the public have 'em, and they snap him up when in the crawling
baseness of his spirit he is a-going to answer a public question, and they drore
more tears into his eyes than ever the mustard does which he all day long lays
on to the sawdust. (But it ain't strong.) Once, when Sniff had the repulsiveness
to reach across to get the milk-pot to hand over for a baby, I see Our Missis
in her rage catch him by both his shoulders, and spin him out into the Bandolining
Room.
But
Mrs. Sniff,--how different! She's the one! She's the one as you'll notice to be
always looking another way from you, when you look at her. She's the one with
the small waist buckled in tight in front, and with the lace cuffs at her wrists,
which she puts on the edge of the counter before her, and stands a smoothing while
the public foams. This smoothing the cuffs and looking another way while the public
foams is the last accomplishment taught to the young ladies as come to Mugby to
be finished by Our Missis; and it's always taught by Mrs. Sniff.
When
Our Missis went away upon her journey, Mrs. Sniff was left in charge. She did
hold the public in check most beautiful! In all my time, I never see half so many
cups of tea given without milk to people as wanted it with, nor half so many cups
of tea with milk given to people as wanted it without. When foaming ensued, Mrs.
Sniff would say: "Then you'd better settle it among yourselves, and change with
one another." It was a most highly delicious lark. I enjoyed the Refreshmenting
business more than ever, and was so glad I had took to it when young.
Our
Missis returned. It got circulated among the young ladies, and it as it might
be penetrated to me through the crevices of the Bandolining Room, that she had
Orrors to reveal, if revelations so contemptible could be dignified with the name.
Agitation become awakened. Excitement was up in the stirrups. Expectation stood
a- tiptoe. At length it was put forth that on our slacked evening in the week,
and at our slackest time of that evening betwixt trains, Our Missis would give
her views of foreign Refreshmenting, in the Bandolining Room.
It
was arranged tasteful for the purpose. The Bandolining table and glass was hid
in a corner, a arm-chair was elevated on a packing- case for Our Missis's ockypation,
a table and a tumbler of water (no sherry in it, thankee) was placed beside it.
Two of the pupils, the season being autumn, and hollyhocks and dahlias being in,
ornamented the wall with three devices in those flowers. On one might be read,
"MAY ALBION NEVER LEARN;" on another "KEEP THE PUBLIC DOWN;" on another, "OUR
REFRESHMENTING CHARTER." The whole had a beautiful appearance, with which the
beauty of the sentiments corresponded.
On
Our Missis's brow was wrote Severity, as she ascended the fatal platform. (Not
that that was anythink new.) Miss Whiff and Miss Piff sat at her feet. Three chairs
from the Waiting Room might have been perceived by a average eye, in front of
her, on which the pupils was accommodated. Behind them a very close observer might
have discerned a Boy. Myself.
"Where,"
said Our Missis, glancing gloomily around, "is Sniff?"
"I
thought it better," answered Mrs. Sniff, "that he should not be let to come in.
He is such an Ass."
"No
doubt," assented Our Missis. "But for that reason is it not desirable to improve
his mind?"
"Oh,
nothing will ever improve HIM," said Mrs. Sniff.
"However,"
pursued Our Missis, "call him in, Ezekiel."
I
called him in. The appearance of the low-minded cove was hailed with disapprobation
from all sides, on account of his having brought his corkscrew with him. He pleaded
"the force of habit."
"The
force!" said Mrs. Sniff. "Don't let us have you talking about force, for Gracious'
sake. There! Do stand still where you are, with your back against the wall."
He
is a smiling piece of vacancy, and he smiled in the mean way in which he will
even smile at the public if he gets a chance (language can say no meaner of him),
and he stood upright near the door with the back of his head agin the wall, as
if he was a waiting for somebody to come and measure his heighth for the Army.
"I
should not enter, ladies," says Our Missis, "on the revolting disclosures I am
about to make, if it was not in the hope that they will cause you to be yet more
implacable in the exercise of the power you wield in a constitutional country,
and yet more devoted to the constitutional motto which I see before me,"--it was
behind her, but the words sounded better so,--"'May Albion never learn!'"
Here
the pupils as had made the motto admired it, and cried, "Hear! Hear! Hear!" Sniff,
showing an inclination to join in chorus, got himself frowned down by every brow.
"The
baseness of the French," pursued Our Missis, "as displayed in the fawning nature
of their Refreshmenting, equals, if not surpasses, anythink as was ever heard
of the baseness of the celebrated Bonaparte."
Miss
Whiff, Miss Piff, and me, we drored a heavy breath, equal to saying, "We thought
as much!" Miss Whiff and Miss Piff seeming to object to my droring mine along
with theirs, I drored another to aggravate 'em.
"Shall
I be believed," says Our Missis, with flashing eyes, "when I tell you that no
sooner had I set my foot upon that treacherous shore--"
Here
Sniff, either bursting out mad, or thinking aloud, says, in a low voice: "Feet.
Plural, you know."
The
cowering that come upon him when he was spurned by all eyes, added to his being
beneath contempt, was sufficient punishment for a cove so grovelling. In the midst
of a silence rendered more impressive by the turned-up female noses with which
it was pervaded, Our Missis went on:
"Shall
I be believed when I tell you, that no sooner had I landed," this word with a
killing look at Sniff, "on that treacherous shore, than I was ushered into a Refreshment
Room where there were--I do not exaggerate--actually eatable things to eat?"
A
groan burst from the ladies. I not only did myself the honour of jining, but also
of lengthening it out.
"Where
there were," Our Missis added, "not only eatable things to eat, but also drinkable
things to drink?"
A
murmur, swelling almost into a scream, ariz. Miss Piff, trembling with indignation,
called out, "Name?"
"I
WILL name," said Our Missis. "There was roast fowls, hot and cold; there was smoking
roast veal surrounded with browned potatoes; there was hot soup with (again I
ask shall I be credited?) nothing bitter in it, and no flour to choke off the
consumer; there was a variety of cold dishes set off with jelly; there was salad;
there was--mark me! FRESH pastry, and that of a light construction; there was
a luscious show of fruit; there was bottles and decanters of sound small wine,
of every size, and adapted to every pocket; the same odious statement will apply
to brandy; and these were set out upon the counter so that all could help themselves."
Our
Missis's lips so quivered, that Mrs. Sniff, though scarcely less convulsed than
she were, got up and held the tumbler to them.
"This,"
proceeds Our Missis, "was my first unconstitutional experience. Well would it
have been if it had been my last and worst. But no. As I proceeded farther into
that enslaved and ignorant land, its aspect became more hideous. I need not explain
to this assembly the ingredients and formation of the British Refreshment sangwich?"
Universal
laughter,--except from Sniff, who, as sangwich-cutter, shook his head in a state
of the utmost dejection as he stood with it agin the wall.
"Well!"
said Our Missis, with dilated nostrils. "Take a fresh, crisp, long, crusty penny
loaf made of the whitest and best flour. Cut it longwise through the middle. Insert
a fair and nicely fitting slice of ham. Tie a smart piece of ribbon round the
middle of the whole to bind it together. Add at one end a neat wrapper of clean
white paper by which to hold it. And the universal French Refreshment sangwich
busts on your disgusted vision."
A
cry of "Shame!" from all--except Sniff, which rubbed his stomach with a soothing
hand.
"I
need not," said Our Missis, "explain to this assembly the usual formation and
fitting of the British Refreshment Room?"
No,
no, and laughter. Sniff agin shaking his head in low spirits agin the wall.
"Well,"
said Our Missis, "what would you say to a general decoration of everythink, to
hangings (sometimes elegant), to easy velvet furniture, to abundance of little
tables, to abundance of little seats, to brisk bright waiters, to great convenience,
to a pervading cleanliness and tastefulness positively addressing the public,
and making the Beast thinking itself worth the pains?"
Contemptuous
fury on the part of all the ladies. Mrs. Sniff looking as if she wanted somebody
to hold her, and everbody else looking as if they'd rayther not.
"Three
times," said Our Missis, working herself into a truly terrimenjious state,--"three
times did I see these shameful things, only between the coast and Paris, and not
counting either: at Hazebroucke, at Arras, at Amiens. But worse remains. Tell
me, what would you call a person who should propose in England that there should
be kept, say at our own model Mugby Junction, pretty baskets, each holding an
assorted cold lunch and dessert for one, each at a certain fixed price, and each
within a passenger's power to take away, to empty in the carriage at perfect leisure,
and to return at another station fifty or a hundred miles farther on?"
There
was disagreement what such a person should be called. Whether revolutionise, atheist,
Bright (I said him), or Un-English. Miss Piff screeched her shrill opinion last,
in the words: "A malignant maniac!"
"I
adopt," says Our Missis, "the brand set upon such a person by the righteous indignation
of my friend Miss Piff. A malignant maniac. Know, then, that that malignant maniac
has sprung from the congenial soil of France, and that his malignant madness was
in unchecked action on this same part of my journey."
I
noticed that Sniff was a-rubbing his hands, and that Mrs. Sniff had got her eye
upon him. But I did not take more particular notice, owing to the excited state
in which the young ladies was, and to feeling myself called upon to keep it up
with a howl.
"On
my experience south of Paris," said Our Missis, in a deep tone, "I will not expatiate.
Too loathsome were the task! But fancy this. Fancy a guard coming round, with
the train at full speed, to inquire how many for dinner. Fancy his telegraphing
forward the number of dinners. Fancy every one expected, and the table elegantly
laid for the complete party. Fancy a charming dinner, in a charming room, and
the head-cook, concerned for the honour of every dish, superintending in his clean
white jacket and cap. Fancy the Beast travelling six hundred miles on end, very
fast, and with great punctuality, yet being taught to expect all this to be done
for it!"
A
spirited chorus of "The Beast!"
I
noticed that Sniff was agin a-rubbing his stomach with a soothing hand, and that
he had drored up one leg. But agin I didn't take particular notice, looking on
myself as called upon to stimulate public feeling. It being a lark besides.
"Putting
everything together," said Our Missis, "French Refreshmenting comes to this, and
oh, it comes to a nice total! First: eatable things to eat, and drinkable things
to drink."
A
groan from the young ladies, kep' up by me.
"Second:
convenience, and even elegance."
Another
groan from the young ladies, kep' up by me.
"Third:
moderate charges."
This
time a groan from me, kep' up by the young ladies.
"Fourth:-
and here," says Our Missis, "I claim your angriest sympathy,--attention, common
civility, nay, even politeness!"
Me
and the young ladies regularly raging mad all together.
"And
I cannot in conclusion," says Our Missis, with her spitefullest sneer, "give you
a completer pictur of that despicable nation (after what I have related), than
assuring you that they wouldn't bear our constitutional ways and noble independence
at Mugby Junction, for a single month, and that they would turn us to the right-about
and put another system in our places, as soon as look at us; perhaps sooner, for
I do not believe they have the good taste to care to look at us twice."
The
swelling tumult was arrested in its rise. Sniff, bore away by his servile disposition,
had drored up his leg with a higher and a higher relish, and was now discovered
to be waving his corkscrew over his head. It was at this moment that Mrs. Sniff,
who had kep' her eye upon him like the fabled obelisk, descended on her victim.
Our Missis followed them both out, and cries was heard in the sawdust department.
You
come into the Down Refreshment Room, at the Junction, making believe you don't
know me, and I'll pint you out with my right thumb over my shoulder which is Our
Missis, and which is Miss Whiff, and which is Miss Piff, and which is Mrs. Sniff.
But you won't get a chance to see Sniff, because he disappeared that night. Whether
he perished, tore to pieces, I cannot say; but his corkscrew alone remains, to
bear witness to the servility of his disposition.
No.
1 BRANCH LINE
THE
SIGNAL-MAN
by Charles Dickens

"Halloa! Below there!"
When he heard a voice thus calling to him, he was standing at the door of his
box, with a flag in his hand, furled round its short pole. One would have thought,
considering the nature of the ground, that he could not have doubted from what
quarter the voice came; but, instead of looking up to where I stood on the top
of the steep cutting nearly over his head, he turned himself about and looked
down the Line. There was something remarkable in his manner of doing so, though
I could not have said, for my life, what. But, I know it was remarkable enough
to attract my notice, even though his figure was foreshortened and shadowed, down
in the deep trench, and mine was high above him, so steeped in the glow of an
angry sunset that I had shaded my eyes with my hand before I saw him at all.
"Halloa! Below!"
From looking down the Line, he turned himself about again, and, raising his eyes,
saw my figure high above him.
"Is there any path by which I can come down and speak to you?"
He looked up at me without replying, and I looked down at him without pressing
him too soon with a repetition of my idle question. Just then, there came a vague
vibration in the earth and air, quickly changing into a violent pulsation, and
an oncoming rush that caused me to start back, as though it had force to draw
me down. When such vapour as rose to my height from this rapid train, had passed
me and was skimming away over the landscape, I looked down again, and saw him
re-furling the flag he had shown while the train went by.
I repeated my inquiry. After a pause, during which he seemed to regard me with
fixed attention, he motioned with his rolled-up flag towards a point on my level,
some two or three hundred yards distant. I called down to him, "All right!" and
made for that point. There, by dint of looking closely about me, I found a rough
zig-zag descending path notched out: which I followed.
The cutting was extremely deep, and unusually precipitate. It was made through
a clammy stone that became oozier and wetter as I went down. For these reasons,
I found the way long enough to give me time to recall a singular air of reluctance
or compulsion with which he had pointed out the path.
When I came down low enough upon the zig-zag descent, to see him again, I saw
that he was standing between the rails on the way by which the train had lately
passed, in an attitude as if he were waiting for me to appear. He had his left
hand at his chin, and that left elbow rested on his right hand crossed over his
breast. His attitude was one of such expectation and watchfulness, that I stopped
a moment, wondering at it.
I resumed my downward way, and, stepping out upon the level of the railroad and
drawing nearer to him, saw that he was a dark sallow man, with a dark beard and
rather heavy eyebrows. His post was in as solitary and dismal a place as ever
I saw. On either side, a dripping-wet wall of jagged stone, excluding all view
but a strip of sky; the perspective one way, only a crooked prolongation of this
great dungeon; the shorter perspective in the other direction, terminating in
a gloomy red light, and the gloomier entrance to a black tunnel, in whose massive
architecture there was a barbarous, depressing, and forbidding air. So little
sunlight ever found its way to this spot, that it had an earthy deadly smell;
and so much cold wind rushed through it, that it struck chill to me, as if I had
left the natural world.
Before he stirred, I was near enough to him to have touched him. Not even then
removing his eyes from mine, he stepped back one step, and lifted his hand.
This was a lonesome post to occupy (I said), and it had riveted my attention when
I looked down from up yonder. A visitor was a rarity, I should suppose; not an
unwelcome rarity, I hoped? In me, he merely saw a man who had been shut up within
narrow limits all his life, and who, being at last set free, had a newly-awakened
interest in these great works. To such purpose I spoke to him; but I am far from
sure of the terms I used, for, besides that I am not happy in opening any conversation,
there was something in the man that daunted me.
He directed a most curious look towards the red light near the tunnel's mouth,
and looked all about it, as if something were missing from it, and then looked
at me.
That light was part of his charge? Was it not?
He answered in a low voice: "Don't you know it is?"
The monstrous thought came into my mind as I perused the fixed eyes and the saturnine
face, that this was a spirit, not a man. I have speculated since, whether there
may have been infection in his mind.
In my turn, I stepped back. But in making the action, I detected in his eyes some
latent fear of me. This put the monstrous thought to flight.
"You look at me," I said, forcing a smile, "as if you had a dread of me."
"I was doubtful," he returned, "whether I had seen you before."
"Where?"
He pointed to the red light he had looked at.
"There?" I said.
Intently watchful of me, he replied (but without sound), Yes.
"My good fellow, what should I do there? However, be that as it may, I never was
there, you may swear."
"I think I may," he rejoined. "Yes. I am sure I may."
His manner cleared, like my own. He replied to my remarks with readiness, and
in well-chosen words. Had he much to do there? Yes; that was to say, he had enough
responsibility to bear; but exactness and watchfulness were what was required
of him, and of actual work--manual labour he had next to none. To change that
signal, to trim those lights, and to turn this iron handle now and then, was all
he had to do under that head. Regarding those many long and lonely hours of which
I seemed to make so much, he could only say that the routine of his life had shaped
itself into that form, and he had grown used to it. He had taught himself a language
down here--if only to know it by sight, and to have formed his own crude ideas
of its pronunciation, could be called learning it. He had also worked at fractions
and decimals, and tried a little algebra; but he was, and had been as a boy, a
poor hand at figures. Was it necessary for him when on duty, always to remain
in that channel of damp air, and could he never rise into the sunshine from between
those high stone walls? Why, that depended upon times and circumstances. Under
some conditions there would be less upon the Line than under others, and the same
held good as to certain hours of the day and night. In bright weather, he did
choose occasions for getting a little above these lower shadows; but, being at
all times liable to be called by his electric bell, and at such times listening
for it with redoubled anxiety, the relief was less than I would suppose.
He took me into his box, where there was a fire, a desk for an official book in
which he had to make certain entries, a telegraphic instrument with its dial face
and needles, and the little bell of which he had spoken. On my trusting that he
would excuse the remark that he had been well-educated, and (I hoped I might say
without offence), perhaps educated above that station, he observed that instances
of slight incongruity in such-wise would rarely be found wanting among large bodies
of men; that he had heard it was so in workhouses, in the police force, even in
that last desperate resource, the army; and that he knew it was so, more or less,
in any great railway staff. He had been, when young (if I could believe it, sitting
in that, hut; he scarcely could), a student of natural philosophy, and had attended
lectures; but he had run wild, misused his opportunities, gone down, and never
risen again. He had no complaint to offer about that. He had made his bed and
he lay upon it. It was far too late to make another.
All that I have here condensed, he said in a quiet manner, with his grave dark
regards divided between me and the fire. He threw in the word "Sir" from time
to time, and especially when he referred to his youth: as though to request me
to understand that he claimed to be nothing but what I found him. He was several
times interrupted by the little bell, and had to read off messages, and send replies.
Once, he had to stand without the door, and display a flag as a train passed,
and make some verbal communication to the driver. In the discharge of his duties
I observed him to be remarkably exact and vigilant, breaking off his discourse
at a syllable, and remaining silent until what he had to do was done.
In a word, I should have set this man down as one of the safest of men to be employed
in that capacity, but for the circumstance that while he was speaking to me he
twice broke off with a fallen colour, turned his face towards the little bell
when it did NOT ring, opened the door of the hut (which was kept shut to exclude
the unhealthy damp), and looked out towards the red light near the mouth of the
tunnel. On both of those occasions, he came back to the fire with the inexplicable
air upon him which I had remarked, without being able to define, when we were
so far asunder.
Said I when I rose to leave him: "You almost make me think that I have met with
a contented man."
(I am afraid I must acknowledge that I said it to lead him on.)
"I believe I used to be so," he rejoined, in the low voice in which he had first
spoken; "but I am troubled, sir, I am troubled."
He would have recalled the words if he could. He had said them, however, and I
took them up quickly.
"With what? What is your trouble?"
"It is very difficult to impart, sir. It is very, very difficult to speak of.
If ever you make me another visit, I will try to tell you."
"But I expressly intend to make you another visit. Say, when shall it be?"
"I go off early in the morning, and I shall be on again at ten to-morrow night,
sir."
"I will come at eleven."
He thanked me, and went out at the door with me. "I'll show my white light, sir,"
he said, in his peculiar low voice, "till you have found the way up. When you
have found it, don't call out! And when you are at the top, don't call out!"
His manner seemed to make the place strike colder to me, but I said no more than
"Very well."
"And when you come down to-morrow night, don't call out! Let me ask you a parting
question. What made you cry 'Halloa! Below there!' to-night?"
"Heaven knows," said I. "I cried something to that effect----"
"Not to that effect, sir. Those were the very words. I know them well."
"Admit those were the very words. I said them, no doubt, because I saw you below."
"For no other reason?"
"What other reason could I possibly have!"
"You had no feeling that they were conveyed to you in any supernatural way?"
"No."
He wished me good night, and held up his light. I walked by the side of the down
Line of rails (with a very disagreeable sensation of a train coming behind me),
until I found the path. It was easier to mount than to descend, and I got back
to my inn without any adventure.
Punctual to my appointment, I placed my foot on the first notch of the zig-zag
next night, as the distant clocks were striking eleven. He was waiting for me
at the bottom, with his white light on. "I have not called out," I said, when
we came close together; "may I speak now?" "By all means, sir." "Good night then,
and here's my hand." "Good night, sir, and here's mine." With that, we walked
side by side to his box, entered it, closed the door, and sat down by the fire.
"I have made up my mind, sir," he began, bending forward as soon as we were seated,
and speaking in a tone but a little above a whisper, "that you shall not have
to ask me twice what troubles me. I took you for someone else yesterday evening.
That troubles me."
"That mistake?"
"No. That someone else."
"Who is it?"
"I don't know."
"Like me?"
"I don't know. I never saw the face. The left arm is across the face, and the
right arm is waved. Violently waved. This way."
I followed his action with my eyes, and it was the action of an arm gesticulating
with the utmost passion and vehemence: "For God's sake clear the way!"
"One moonlight night," said the man, "I was sitting here, when I heard a voice
cry 'Halloa! Below there!' I started up, looked from that door, and saw this Some
one else standing by the red light near the tunnel, waving as I just now showed
you. The voice seemed hoarse with shouting, and it cried, 'Look out! Look out!'
And then again 'Halloa! Below there! Look out!' I caught up my lamp, turned it
on red, and ran towards the figure, calling, 'What's wrong? What has happened?
Where?' It stood just outside the blackness of the tunnel. I advanced so close
upon it that I wondered at its keeping the sleeve across its eyes. I ran right
up at it, and had my hand stretched out to pull the sleeve away, when it was gone."
"Into the tunnel," said I.
"No. I ran on into the tunnel, five hundred yards. I stopped and held my lamp
above my head, and saw the figures of the measured distance, and saw the wet stains
stealing down the walls and trickling through the arch. I ran out again, faster
than I had run in (for I had a mortal abhorrence of the place upon me), and I
looked all round the red light with my own red light, and I went up the iron ladder
to the gallery atop of it, and I came down again, and ran back here. I telegraphed
both ways, 'An alarm has been given. Is anything wrong?' The answer came back,
both ways: 'All well.'"
Resisting the slow touch of a frozen finger tracing out my spine, I showed him
how that this figure must be a deception of his sense of sight, and how that figures,
originating in disease of the delicate nerves that minister to the functions of
the eye, were known to have often troubled patients, some of whom had become conscious
of the nature of their affliction, and had even proved it by experiments upon
themselves. "As to an imaginary cry," said I, "do but listen for a moment to the
wind in this unnatural valley while we speak so low, and to the wild harp it makes
of the telegraph wires!"
That was all very well, he returned, after we had sat listening for a while, and
he ought to know something of the wind and the wires, he who so often passed long
winter nights there, alone and watching. But he would beg to remark that he had
not finished.
I asked his pardon, and he slowly added these words, touching my arm:
"Within six hours after the Appearance, the memorable accident on this Line happened,
and within ten hours the dead and wounded were brought along through the tunnel
over the spot where the figure had stood."
A disagreeable shudder crept over me, but I did my best against it. It was not
to be denied, I rejoined, that this was a remarkable coincidence, calculated deeply
to impress his mind. But it was unquestionable that remarkable coincidences did
continually occur, and they must be taken into account in dealing with such a
subject. Though to be sure I must admit, I added (for I thought I saw that he
was going to bring the objection to bear upon me), men of common sense did not
allow much for coincidences in making the ordinary calculations of life.
He again begged to remark that he had not finished.
I again begged his pardon for being betrayed into interruptions.
"This," he said, again laying his hand upon my arm, and glancing over his shoulder
with hollow eyes, "was just a year ago. Six or seven months passed, and I had
recovered from the surprise and shock, when one morning, as the day was breaking,
I, standing at that door, looked towards the red light, and saw the spectre again."
He stopped, with a fixed look at me.
"Did it cry out?"
"No. It was silent."
"Did it wave its arm?"
"No. It leaned against the shaft of the light, with both hands before the face.
Like this."
Once more, I followed his action with my eyes. It was an action of mourning. I
have seen such an attitude in stone figures on tombs.
"Did you go up to it?"
"I came in and sat down, partly to collect my thoughts, partly because it had
turned me faint. When I went to the door again, daylight was above me, and the
ghost was gone."
"But nothing followed? Nothing came of this?"
He touched me on the arm with his forefinger twice or thrice, giving a ghastly
nod each time:
"That very day, as a train came out of the tunnel, I noticed, at a carriage window
on my side, what looked like a confusion of hands and heads, and something waved.
I saw it, just in time to signal the driver, Stop! He shut off, and put his brake
on, but the train drifted past here a hundred and fifty yards or more. I ran after
it, and, as I went along, heard terrible screams and cries. A beautiful young
lady had died instantaneously in one of the compartments, and was brought in here,
and laid down on this floor between us."
Involuntarily, I pushed my chair back, as I looked from the boards at which he
pointed, to himself.
"True, sir. True. Precisely as it happened, so I tell it you."
I could think of nothing to say, to any purpose, and my mouth was very dry. The
wind and the wires took up the story with a long lamenting wail.
He resumed. "Now, sir, mark this, and judge how my mind is troubled. The spectre
came back, a week ago. Ever since, it has been there, now and again, by fits and
starts."
"At the light?"
"At the Danger-light."
"What does it seem to do?"
He repeated, if possible with increased passion and vehemence, that former gesticulation
of "For God's sake clear the way!"
Then, he went on. "I have no peace or rest for it. It calls to me, for many minutes
together, in an agonised manner, 'Below there! Look out! Look out!' It stands
waving to me. It rings my little bell----"
I caught at that. "Did it ring your bell yesterday evening when I was here, and
you went to the door?"
"Twice."
"Why, see," said I, "how your imagination misleads you. My eyes were on the bell,
and my ears were open to the bell, and if I am a living man, it did NOT ring at
those times. No, nor at any other time, except when it was rung in the natural
course of physical things by the station communicating with you."
He shook his head. "I have never made a mistake as to that, yet, sir. I have never
confused the spectre's ring with the man's. The ghost's ring is a strange vibration
in the bell that it derives from nothing else, and I have not asserted that the
bell stirs to the eye. I don't wonder that you failed to hear it. But I heard
it."
"And did the spectre seem to be there, when you looked out?"
"It WAS there."
"Both times?"
He repeated firmly: "Both times."
"Will you come to the door with me, and look for it now?"
He bit his under-lip as though he were somewhat unwilling, but arose. I opened
the door, and stood on the step, while he stood in the doorway. There, was the
Danger-light. There, was the dismal mouth of the tunnel. There, were the high
wet stone walls of the cutting. There, were the stars above them.
"Do you see it?" I asked him, taking particular note of his face. His eyes were
prominent and strained; but not very much more so, perhaps, than my own had been
when I had directed them earnestly towards the same spot.
"No," he answered. "It is not there."
"Agreed," said I.
We went in again, shut the door, and resumed our seats. I was thinking how best
to improve this advantage, if it might be called one, when he took up the conversation
in such a matter of course way, so assuming that there could be no serious question
of fact between us, that I felt myself placed in the weakest of positions.
"By this time you will fully understand, sir," he said, "that what troubles me
so dreadfully, is the question, What does the spectre mean?"
I was not sure, I told him, that I did fully understand.
"What is its warning against?" he said, ruminating, with his eyes on the fire,
and only by times turning them on me. "What is the danger? Where is the danger?
There is danger overhanging, somewhere on the Line. Some dreadful calamity will
happen. It is not to be doubted this third time, after what has gone before. But
surely this is a cruel haunting of me. What can I do?"
He pulled out his handkerchief, and wiped the drops from his heated forehead.
"If I telegraph Danger, on either side of me, or on both, I can give no reason
for it," he went on, wiping the palms of his hands. "I should get into trouble,
and do no good. They would think I was mad. This is the way it would work:--Message:
'Danger! Take care!' Answer: 'What danger? Where?' Message: 'Don't know. But for
God's sake take care!' They would displace me. What else could they do?"
His pain of mind was most pitiable to see. It was the mental torture of a conscientious
man, oppressed beyond endurance by an unintelligible responsibility involving
life.
"When it first stood under the Danger-light," he went on, putting his dark hair
back from his head, and drawing his hands outward across and across his temples
in an extremity of feverish distress, "why not tell me where that accident was
to happen--if it must happen? Why not tell me how it could be averted--if it could
have been averted? When on its second coming it hid its face, why not tell me
instead: 'She is going to die. Let them keep her at home'? If it came, on those
two occasions, only to show me that its warnings were true, and so to prepare
me for the third, why not warn me plainly now? And I, Lord help me! A mere poor
signalman on this solitary station! Why not go to somebody with credit to be believed,
and power to act!"
When I saw him in this state, I saw that for the poor man's sake, as well as for
the public safety, what I had to do for the time was, to compose his mind. Therefore,
setting aside all question of reality or unreality between us, I represented to
him that whoever thoroughly discharged his duty, must do well, and that at least
it was his comfort that he understood his duty, though he did not understand these
confounding Appearances. In this effort I succeeded far better than in the attempt
to reason him out of his conviction. He became calm; the occupations incidental
to his post as the night advanced, began to make larger demands on his attention;
and I left him at two in the morning. I had offered to stay through the night,
but he would not hear of it.
That I more than once looked back at the red light as I ascended the pathway,
that I did not like the red light, and that I should have slept but poorly if
my bed had been under it, I see no reason to conceal. Nor, did I like the two
sequences of the accident and the dead girl. I see no reason to conceal that,
either.
But, what ran most in my thoughts was the consideration how ought I to act, having
become the recipient of this disclosure? I had proved the man to be intelligent,
vigilant, painstaking, and exact; but how long might he remain so, in his state
of mind? Though in a subordinate position, still he held a most important trust,
and would I (for instance) like to stake my own life on the chances of his continuing
to execute it with precision?
Unable to overcome a feeling that there would be something treacherous in my communicating
what he had told me, to his superiors in the Company, without first being plain
with himself and proposing a middle course to him, I ultimately resolved to offer
to accompany him (otherwise keeping his secret for the present) to the wisest
medical practitioner we could hear of in those parts, and to take his opinion.
A change in his time of duty would come round next night, he had apprised me,
and he would be off an hour or two after sunrise, and on again soon after sunset.
I had appointed to return accordingly.
Next evening was a lovely evening, and I walked out early to enjoy it. The sun
was not yet quite down when I traversed the field-path near the top of the deep
cutting. I would extend my walk for an hour, I said to myself, half an hour on
and half an hour back, and it would then be time to go to my signalman's box.
Before pursuing my stroll, I stepped to the brink, and mechanically looked down,
from the point from which I had first seen him. I cannot describe the thrill that
seized upon me, when, close at the mouth of the tunnel, I saw the appearance of
a man, with his left sleeve across his eyes, passionately waving his right arm.
The nameless horror that oppressed me, passed in a moment, for in a moment I saw
that this appearance of a man was a man indeed, and that there was a little group
of other men standing at a short distance, to whom he seemed to be rehearsing
the gesture he made. The Danger-light was not yet lighted. Against its shaft,
a little low hut, entirely new to me, had been made of some wooden supports and
tarpaulin. It looked no bigger than a bed.
With an irresistible sense that something was wrong--with a flashing self-reproachful
fear that fatal mischief had come of my leaving the man there, and causing no
one to be sent to overlook or correct what he did--I descended the notched path
with all the speed I could make.
"What is the matter?" I asked the men.
"Signalman killed this morning, sir."
"Not the man belonging to that box?"
"Yes, sir."
"Not the man I know?"
"You will recognise him, sir, if you knew him," said the man who spoke for the
others, solemnly uncovering his own head and raising an end of the tarpaulin,
"for his face is quite composed."
"O! how did this happen, how did this happen?" I asked, turning from one to another
as the hut closed in again.
"He was cut down by an engine, sir. No man in England knew his work better. But
somehow he was not clear of the outer rail. It was just at broad day. He had struck
the light, and had the lamp in his hand. As the engine came out of the tunnel,
his back was towards her, and she cut him down. That man drove her, and was showing
how it happened. Show the gentleman, Tom."
The man, who wore a rough dark dress, stepped back to his former place at the
mouth of the tunnel!
"Coming round the curve in the tunnel, sir," he said, "I saw him at the end, like
as if I saw him down a perspective-glass. There was no time to check speed, and
I knew him to be very careful. As he didn't seem to take heed of the whistle,
I shut it off when we were running down upon him, and called to him as loud as
I could call."
"What did you say?"
"I said, Below there! Look out! Look out! For God's sake clear the way!"
I started.
"Ah! it was a dreadful time, sir. I never left off calling to him. I put this
arm before my eyes, not to see, and I waved this arm to the last; but it was no
use."
Without prolonging the narrative to dwell on any one of its curious circumstances
more than on any other, I may, in closing it, point out the coincidence that the
warning of the Engine-Driver included, not only the words which the unfortunate
Signalman had repeated to me as haunting him, but also the words which I myself--not
he--had attached, and that only in my own mind, to the gesticulation he had imitated.
No.
3 BRANCH LINE
THE
COMPENSATION HOUSE
by
Charles Collins

"There's not a looking-glass in all the house, sir. It's some peculiar fancy of
my master's. There isn't one in any single room in the house."
It was a dark and gloomy-looking building, and had been purchased by this Company
for an enlargement of their Goods Station. The value of the house had been referred
to what was popularly called "a compensation jury," and the house was called,
in consequence, The Compensation House. It had become the Company's property;
but its tenant still remained in possession, pending the commencement of active
building operations. My attention was originally drawn to this house because it
stood directly in front of a collection of huge pieces of timber which lay near
this part of the Line, and on which I sometimes sat for half an hour at a time,
when I was tired by my wanderings about Mugby Junction.
It was square, cold, grey-looking, built of rough-hewn stone, and roofed with
thin slabs of the same material. Its windows were few in number, and very small
for the size of the building. In the great blank, grey broadside, there were only
four windows. The entrance-door was in the middle of the house; there was a window
on either side of it, and there were two more in the single story above. The blinds
were all closely drawn, and when the door was shut, the dreary building gave no
sign of life or occupation.
But the door was not always shut. Sometimes it was opened from within, with a
great jingling of bolts and door-chains, and then a man would come forward and
stand upon the doorstep, snuffing the air as one might do who was ordinarily kept
on rather a small allowance of that element. He was stout, thickset, and perhaps
fifty or sixty years old--a man whose hair was cut exceedingly close, who wore
a large bushy beard, and whose eye had a sociable twinkle in it which was prepossessing.
He was dressed, whenever I saw him, in a greenish-brown frock-coat made of some
material which was not cloth, wore a waistcoat and trousers of light colour, and
had a frill to his shirt--an ornament, by the way, which did not seem to go at
all well with the beard, which was continually in contact with it. It was the
custom of this worthy person, after standing for a short time on the threshold
inhaling the air, to come forward into the road, and, after glancing at one of
the upper windows in a half mechanical way, to cross over to the logs, and, leaning
over the fence which guarded the railway, to look up and down the Line (it passed
before the house) with the air of a man accomplishing a self-imposed task of which
nothing was expected to come. This done, he would cross the road again, and turning
on the threshold to take a final sniff of air, disappeared once more within the
house, bolting and chaining the door again as if there were no probability of
its being reopened for at least a week. Yet half an hour had not passed before
he was out in the road again, sniffing the air and looking up and down the Line
as before.
It was not very long before I managed to scrape acquaintance with this restless
personage. I soon found out that my friend with the shirt-frill was the confidential
servant, butler, valet, factotum, what you will, of a sick gentleman, a Mr. Oswald
Strange, who had recently come to inhabit the house opposite, and concerning whose
history my new acquaintance, whose name I ascertained was Masey, seemed disposed
to be somewhat communicative. His master, it appeared, had come down to this place,
partly for the sake of reducing his establishment--not, Mr. Masey was swift to
inform me, on economical principles, but because the poor gentleman, for particular
reasons, wished to have few dependents about him--partly in order that he might
be near his old friend, Dr. Garden, who was established in the neighbourhood,
and whose society and advice were necessary to Mr. Strange's life. That life was,
it appeared, held by this suffering gentleman on a precarious tenure. It was ebbing
away fast with each passing hour. The servant already spoke of his master in the
past tense, describing him to me as a young gentleman not more than five-and-thirty
years of age, with a young face, as far as the features and build of it went,
but with an expression which had nothing of youth about it. This was the great
peculiarity of the man. At a distance he looked younger than he was by many years,
and strangers, at the time when he had been used to get about, always took him
for a man of seven or eight-and-twenty, but they changed their minds on getting
nearer to him. Old Masey had a way of his own of summing up the peculiarities
of his master, repeating twenty times over: "Sir, he was Strange by name, and
Strange by nature, and Strange to look at into the bargain."
It was during my second or third interview with the old fellow that he uttered
the words quoted at the beginning of this plain narrative.
"Not such a thing as a looking-glass in all the house," the old man said, standing
beside my piece of timber, and looking across reflectively at the house opposite.
"Not one."
"In the sitting-rooms, I suppose you mean?"
"No, sir, I mean sitting-rooms and bedrooms both; there isn't so much as a shaving-glass
as big as the palm of your hand anywhere."
"But how is it?" I asked. "Why are there no looking-glasses in any of the rooms?"
"Ah, sir!" replied Masey, "that's what none of us can ever tell. There is the
mystery. It's just a fancy on the part of my master. He had some strange fancies,
and this was one of them. A pleasant gentleman he was to live with, as any servant
could desire. A liberal gentleman, and one who gave but little trouble; always
ready with a kind word, and a kind deed, too, for the matter of that. There was
not a house in all the parish of St. George's (in which we lived before we came
down here) where the servants had more holidays or a better table kept; but, for
all that, he had his queer ways and his fancies, as I may call them, and this
was one of them. And the point he made of it, sir," the old man went on; "the
extent to which that regulation was enforced, whenever a new servant was engaged;
and the changes in the establishment it occasioned! In hiring a new servant, the
very first stipulation made, was that about the looking-glasses. It was one of
my duties to explain the thing, as far as it could be explained, before any servant
was taken into the house. 'You'll find it an easy place,' I used to say, 'with
a liberal table, good wages, and a deal of leisure; but there's one thing you
must make up your mind to; you must do without looking-glasses while you're here,
for there isn't one in the house, and, what's more, there never will be.'"
"But how did you know there never would be one?" I asked.
"Lor' bless you, sir! If you'd seen and heard all that I'd seen and heard, you
could have no doubt about it. Why, only to take one instance:--I remember a particular
day when my master had occasion to go into the housekeeper's room, where the cook
lived, to see about some alterations that were making, and when a pretty scene
took place. The cook--she was a very ugly woman, and awful vain--had left a little
bit of a looking-glass, about six inches square, upon the chimney-piece; she had
got it surreptitious, and kept it always locked up; but she'd left it out, being
called away suddenly, while titivating her hair. I had seen the glass, and was
making for the chimney-piece as fast as I could; but master came in front of it
before I could get there, and it was all over in a moment. He gave one long piercing
look into it, turned deadly pale, and seizing the glass, dashed it into a hundred
pieces on the floor, and then stamped upon the fragments and ground them into
powder with his feet. He shut himself up for the rest of that day in his own room,
first ordering me to discharge the cook, then and there, at a moment's notice."
"What an extraordinary thing!" I said, pondering.
"Ah, sir," continued the old man, "it was astonishing what trouble I had with
those women-servants. It was difficult to get any that would take the place at
all under the circumstances. 'What not so much as a mossul to do one's 'air at?'
they would say, and they'd go off, in spite of extra wages. Then those who did
consent to come, what lies they would tell, to be sure! They would protest that
they didn't want to look in the glass, that they never had been in the habit of
looking in the glass, and all the while that very wench would have her looking-glass,
of some kind or another, hid away among her clothes upstairs. Sooner or later,
she would bring it out too, and leave it about somewhere or other (just like the
cook), where it was as likely as not that master might see it. And then--for girls
like that have no consciences, sir--when I had caught one of 'em at it, she'd
turn round as bold as brass, 'And how am I to know whether my 'air's parted straight?'
she'd say, just as if it hadn't been considered in her wages that that was the
very thing which she never was to know while she lived in our house. A vain lot,
sir, and the ugly ones always the vainest. There was no end to their dodges. They'd
have looking-glasses in the interiors of their workbox-lids, where it was next
to impossible that I could find 'em, or inside the covers of hymn-books, or cookery-books,
or in their caddies. I recollect one girl, a sly one she was, and marked with
the small-pox terrible, who was always reading her prayer-book at odd times. Sometimes
I used to think what a religious mind she'd got, and at other times (depending
on the mood I was in) I would conclude that it was the marriage-service she was
studying; but one day, when I got behind her to satisfy my doubts--lo and behold!
it was the old story a bit of glass, without a frame, fastened into the kiver
with the outside edges of the sheets of postage-stamps. Dodges! Why they'd keep
their looking-glasses in the scullery or the coal-cellar, or leave them in charge
of the servants next door, or with the milk-woman round the corner; but have 'em
they would. And I don't mind confessing, sir," said the old man, bringing his
long speech to an end, "that it was an inconveniency not to have so much as a
scrap to shave before. I used to go to the barber's at first, but I soon gave
that up, and took to wearing my beard as my master did; likewise to keeping my
hair"--Mr. Masey touched his head as he spoke--"so short, that it didn't require
any parting, before or behind."
I sat for some time lost in amazement, and staring at my companion. My curiosity
was powerfully stimulated, and the desire to learn more was very strong within
me.
"Had your master any personal defect," I inquired, "which might have made it distressing
to him to see his own image reflected?"
"By no means, sir," said the old man. "He was as handsome a gentleman as you would
wish to see: a little delicate-looking and care-worn, perhaps, with a very pale
face; but as free from any deformity as you or I, sir. No, sir, no: it was nothing
of that."
"Then what was it? What is it?" I asked, desperately. "Is there no one who is,
or has been, in your master's confidence?"
"Yes, sir," said the old fellow, with his eyes turning to that window opposite.
"There is one person who knows all my master's secrets, and this secret among
the rest."
"And who is that?"
The old man turned round and looked at me fixedly. "The doctor here," he said.
"Dr. Garden. My master's very old friend."
"I should like to speak with this gentleman," I said, involuntarily.
"He is with my master now," answered Masey. "He will be coming out presently,
and I think I may say he will answer any question you may like to put to him."
As the old man spoke, the door of the house opened, and a middle-aged gentleman,
who was tall and thin, but who lost something of his height by a habit of stooping,
appeared on the step. Old Masey left me in a moment. He muttered something about
taking the doctor's directions, and hastened across the road. The tall gentleman
spoke to him for a minute or two very seriously, probably about the patient up-stairs,
and it then seemed to me from their gestures that I myself was the subject of
some further conversation between them. At all events, when old Masey retired
into the house, the doctor came across to where I was standing, and addressed
me with a very agreeable smile.
"John Masey tells me that you are interested in the case of my poor friend, sir.
I am now going back to my house, and if you don't mind the trouble of walking
with me, I shall be happy to enlighten you as far as I am able."
I hastened to make my apologies and express my acknowledgments, and we set off
together. When we had reached the doctor's house and were seated in his study,
I ventured to inquire after the health of this poor gentleman.
"I am afraid there is no amendment, nor any prospect of amendment," said the doctor.
"Old Masey has told you something of his strange condition, has he not?"
"Yes, he has told me something," I answered, "and he says you know all about it."
Dr. Garden looked very grave. "I don't know all about it. I only know what happens
when he comes into the presence of a looking-glass. But as to the circumstances
which have led to his being haunted in the strangest fashion that I ever heard
of, I know no more of them than you do."
"Haunted?" I repeated. "And in the strangest fashion that you ever heard of?"
Dr. Garden smiled at my eagerness, seemed to be collecting his thoughts, and presently
went on:
"I made the acquaintance of Mr. Oswald Strange in a curious way. It was on board
of an Italian steamer, bound from Civita Vecchia to Marseilles. We had been travelling
all night. In the morning I was shaving myself in the cabin, when suddenly this
man came behind me, glanced for a moment into the small mirror before which I
was standing, and then, without a word of warning, tore it from the nail, and
dashed it to pieces at my feet. His face was at first livid with passion--it seemed
to me rather the passion of fear than of anger--but it changed after a moment,
and he seemed ashamed of what he had done. Well," continued the doctor, relapsing
for a moment into a smile, "of course I was in a devil of a rage. I was operating
on my underjaw, and the start the thing gave me caused me to cut myself. Besides,
altogether it seemed an outrageous and insolent thing, and I gave it to poor Strange
in a style of language which I am sorry to think of now, but which, I hope, was
excusable at the time. As to the offender himself, his confusion and regret, now
that his passion was at an end, disarmed me. He sent for the steward, and paid
most liberally for the damage done to the steamboat property, explaining to him,
and to some other passengers who were present in the cabin, that what had happened
had been accidental. For me, however, he had another explanation. Perhaps he felt
that I must know it to have been no accident--perhaps he really wished to confide
in someone. At all events, he owned to me that what he had done was done under
the influence of an uncontrollable impulse--a seizure which took him, he said,
at times--something like a fit. He begged my pardon, and entreated that I would
endeavour to disassociate him personally from this action, of which he was heartily
ashamed. Then he attempted a sickly joke, poor fellow, about his wearing a beard,
and feeling a little spiteful, in consequence, when he saw other people taking
the trouble to shave; but he said nothing about any infirmity or delusion, and
shortly after left me.
"In my professional capacity I could not help taking some interest in Mr. Strange.
I did not altogether lose sight of him after our sea-journey to Marseilles was
over. I found him a pleasant companion up to a certain point; but I always felt
that there was a reserve about him. He was uncommunicative about his past life,
and especially would never allude to anything connected with his travels or his
residence in Italy, which, however, I could make out had been a long one. He spoke
Italian well, and seemed familiar with the country, but disliked to talk about
it.
"During the time we spent together there were seasons when he was so little himself,
that I, with a pretty large experience, was almost afraid to be with him. His
attacks were violent and sudden in the last degree; and there was one most extraordinary
feature connected with them all:--some horrible association of ideas took possession
of him whenever he found himself before a looking-glass. And after we had travelled
together for a time, I dreaded the sight of a mirror hanging harmlessly against
a wall, or a toilet-glass standing on a dressing-table, almost as much as he did.
"Poor Strange was not always affected in the same manner by a looking-glass. Sometimes
it seemed to madden him with fury; at other times, it appeared to turn him to
stone: remaining motionless and speechless as if attacked by catalepsy. One night--the
worst things always happen at night, and oftener than one would think on stormy
nights--we arrived at a small town in the central district of Auvergne: a place
but little known, out of the line of railways, and to which we had been drawn,
partly by the antiquarian attractions which the place possessed, and partly by
the beauty of the scenery. The weather had been rather against us. The day had
been dull and murky, the heat stifling, and the sky had threatened mischief since
the morning. At sundown, these threats were fulfilled. The thunderstorm, which
had been all day coming up--as it seemed to us, against the wind--burst over the
place where we were lodged, with very great violence.
"There are some practical-minded persons with strong constitutions, who deny roundly
that their fellow-creatures are, or can be, affected, in mind or body, by atmospheric
influences. I am not a disciple of that school, simply because I cannot believe
that those changes of weather, which have so much effect upon animals, and even
on inanimate objects, can fail to have some influence on a piece of machinery
so sensitive and intricate as the human frame. I think, then, that it was in part
owing to the disturbed state of the atmosphere that, on this particular evening
I felt nervous and depressed. When my new friend Strange and I parted for the
night, I felt as little disposed to go to rest as I ever did in my life. The thunder
was still lingering among the mountains in the midst of which our inn was placed.
Sometimes it seemed nearer, and at other times further off; but it never left
off altogether, except for a few minutes at a time. I was quite unable to shake
off a succession of painful ideas which persistently besieged my mind.
"It is hardly necessary to add that I thought from time to time of my travelling-companion
in the next room. His image was almost continually before me. He had been dull
and depressed all the evening, and when we parted for the night there was a look
in his eyes which I could not get out of my memory.
"There was a door between our rooms, and the partition dividing them was not very
solid; and yet I had heard no sound since I parted from him which could indicate
that he was there at all, much less that he was awake and stirring. I was in a
mood, sir, which made this silence terrible to me, and so many foolish fancies--as
that he was lying there dead, or in a fit, or what not--took possession of me,
that at last I could bear it no longer. I went to the door, and, after listening,
very attentively but quite in vain, for any sound, I at last knocked pretty sharply.
There was no answer. Feeling that longer suspense would be unendurable, I, without
more ceremony, turned the handle and went in.
"It was a great bare room, and so imperfectly lighted by a single candle that
it was almost impossible--except when the lightning flashed--to see into its great
dark corners. A small rickety bedstead stood against one of the walls, shrouded
by yellow cotton curtains, passed through a great iron ring in the ceiling. There
was, for all other furniture, an old chest-of-drawers which served also as a washing-stand,
having a small basin and ewer and a single towel arranged on the top of it. There
were, moreover, two ancient chairs and a dressing-table. On this last, stood a
large old-fashioned looking-glass with a carved frame.
"I must have seen all these things, because I remember them so well now, but I
do not know how I could have seen them, for it seems to me that, from the moment
of my entering that room, the action of my senses and of the faculties of my mind
was held fast by the ghastly figure which stood motionless before the looking-glass
in the middle of the empty room.
"How terrible it was! The weak light of one candle standing on the table shone
upon Strange's face, lighting it from below, and throwing (as I now remember)
his shadow, vast and black, upon the wall behind him and upon the ceiling overhead.
He was leaning rather forward, with his hands upon the table supporting him, and
gazing into the glass which stood before him with a horrible fixity. The sweat
was on his white face; his rigid features and his pale lips showed in that feeble
light were horrible, more than words can tell, to look at. He was so completely
stupefied and lost, that the noise I had made in knocking and in entering the
room was unobserved by him. Not even when I called him loudly by name did he move
or did his face change.
"What a vision of horror that was, in the great dark empty room, in a silence
that was something more than negative, that ghastly figure frozen into stone by
some unexplained terror! And the silence and the stillness! The very thunder had
ceased now. My heart stood still with fear. Then, moved by some instinctive feeling,
under whose influence I acted mechanically, I crept with slow steps nearer and
nearer to the table, and at last, half expecting to see some spectre even more
horrible than this which I saw already, I looked over his shoulder into the looking-glass.
I happened to touch his arm, though only in the lightest manner. In that one moment
the spell which had held him--who knows how long?--enchained, seemed broken, and
he lived in this world again. He turned round upon me, as suddenly as a tiger
makes its spring, and seized me by the arm.
"I have told you that even before I entered my friend's room I had felt, all that
night, depressed and nervous. The necessity for action at this time was, however,
so obvious., and this man's agony made all that I had felt, appear so trifling,
that much of my own discomfort seemed to leave me. I felt that I must be strong.
"The face before me almost unmanned me. The eyes which looked into mine were so
scared with terror, the lips--if I may say so--looked so speechless. The wretched
man gazed long into my face, and then, still holding me by the arm, slowly, very
slowly, turned his head. I had gently tried to move him away from the looking-glass,
but he would not stir, and now he was looking into it as fixedly as ever. I could
bear this no longer, and, using such force as was necessary, I drew him gradually
away, and got him to one of the chairs at the foot of the bed. 'Come!' I said--after
the long silence my voice, even to myself, sounded strange and hollow--'come!
You are over-tired, and you feel the weather. Don't you think you ought to be
in bed? Suppose you lie down. Let me try my medical skill in mixing you a composing
draught.'
"He held my hand, and looked eagerly into my eyes. 'I am better now,' he said,
speaking at last very faintly. Still he looked at me in that wistful way. It seemed
as if there were something that he wanted to do or say, but had not sufficient
resolution. At length he got up from the chair to which I had led him, and beckoning
me to follow him, went across the room to the dressing-table, and stood again
before the glass. A violent shudder passed through his frame as he looked into
it; but apparently forcing himself to go through with what he had now begun, he
remained where he was, and, without looking away, moved to me with his hand to
come and stand beside him. I complied.
"'Look in there!' he said, in an almost inaudible tone. He was supported, as before,
by his hands resting on the table, and could only bow with his head towards the
glass to intimate what he meant. 'Look in there!' he repeated.
"I did as he asked me.
"'What do you see?' he asked next.
"'See?' I repeated, trying to speak as cheerfully as I could, and describing the
reflexion of his own face as nearly as I could. 'I see a very, very pale face
with sunken cheeks----'
"'What?' he cried, with an alarm in his voice which I could not understand.
"'With sunken cheeks,' I went on, 'and two hollow eyes with large pupils.'
"I saw the reflexion of my friend's face change, and felt his hand clutch my arm
even more tightly than he had done before. I stopped abruptly and looked round
at him. He did not turn his head towards me, but, gazing still into the looking-glass,
seemed to labour for utterance.
"'What,' he stammered at last. 'Do--you--see it--too?'
"'See what?' I asked, quickly.
"'That face!' he cried, in accents of horror. 'That face--which is not mine--and
which--I SEE INSTEAD OF MINE--always!'
"I was struck speechless by the words. In a moment this mystery was explained--but
what an explanation! Worse, a hundred times worse, than anything I had imagined.
What! Had this man lost the power of seeing his own image as it was reflected
there before him? and, in its place, was there the image of another? Had he changed
reflexions with some other man? The frightfulness of the thought struck me speechless
for a time--then I saw how false an impression my silence was conveying.
"'No, no, no!' I cried, as soon as I could speak--'a hundred times, no! I see
you, of course, and only you. It was your face I attempted to describe, and no
other.'
"He seemed not to hear me. 'Why, look there!' he said, in a low, indistinct voice,
pointing to his own image in the glass. 'Whose face do you see there?'
"'Why yours, of course.' And then, after a moment, I added, 'Whose do you see?'
"He answered, like one in a trance, 'His--only his--always his!' He stood still
a moment, and then, with a loud and terrific scream, repeated those words, 'ALWAYS
HIS, ALWAYS HIS,' and fell down in a fit before me.
"I knew what to do now. Here was a thing which, at any rate, I could understand.
I had with me my usual small stock of medicines and surgical instruments, and
I did what was necessary: first to restore my unhappy patient, and next to procure
for him the rest he needed so much. He was very ill--at death's door for some
days--and I could not leave him, though there was urgent need that I should be
back in London. When he began to mend, I sent over to England for my servant--John
Masey--whom I knew I could trust. Acquainting him with the outlines of the case,
I left him in charge of my patient, with orders that he should be brought over
to this country as soon as he was fit to travel.
"That awful scene was always before me. I saw this devoted man day after day,
with the eyes of my imagination, sometimes destroying in his rage the harmless
looking-glass, which was the immediate cause of his suffering, sometimes transfixed
before the horrid image that turned him to stone. I recollect coming upon him
once when we were stopping at a roadside inn, and seeing him stand so by broad
daylight. His back was turned towards me, and I waited and watched him for nearly
half an hour as he stood there motionless and speechless, and appearing not to
breathe. I am not sure but that this apparition seen so by daylight was more ghastly
than that apparition seen in the middle of the night, with the thunder rumbling
among the hills.
"Back in London in his own house, where he could command in some sort the objects
which should surround him, poor Strange was better than he would have been elsewhere.
He seldom went out except at night, but once or twice I have walked with him by
daylight, and have seen him terribly agitated when we have had to pass a shop
in which looking-glasses were exposed for sale.
"It is nearly a year now since my poor friend followed me down to this place,
to which I have retired. For some months he has been daily getting weaker and
weaker, and a disease of the lungs has become developed in him, which has brought
him to his death-bed. I should add, by-the-by, that John Masey has been his constant
companion ever since I brought them together, and I have had, consequently, to
look after a new servant.
"And now tell me," the doctor added, bringing his tale to an end, "did you ever
hear a more miserable history, or was ever man haunted in a more ghastly manner
than this man?"
I was about to reply, when we heard a sound of footsteps outside, and before I
could speak old Masey entered the room, in haste and disorder.
"I was just telling this gentleman," the doctor said: not at the moment observing
old Masey's changed manner: "how you deserted me to go over to your present master."
"Ah! sir," the man answered, in a troubled voice, "I'm afraid he won't be my master
long."
The doctor was on his legs in a moment. "What! Is he worse?"
"I think, sir, he is dying," said the old man.
"Come with me, sir; you may be of use if you can keep quiet." The doctor caught
up his hat as he addressed me in those words, and in a few minutes we had reached
The Compensation House. A few seconds more and we were standing in a darkened
room on the first floor, and I saw lying on a bed before me--pale, emaciated and,
as it seemed, dying--the man whose story I had just heard.
He was lying with closed eyes when we came into the room, and I had leisure to
examine his features. What a tale of misery they told! They were regular and symmetrical
in their arrangement, and not without beauty--the beauty of exceeding refinement
and delicacy. Force there was none, and perhaps it was to the want of this that
the faults--perhaps the crime--which had made the man's life so miserable were
to be attributed. Perhaps the crime? Yes, it was not likely that an affliction,
lifelong and terrible, such as this he had endured, would come upon him unless
some misdeed had provoked the punishment. What misdeed we were soon to know.
It sometimes--I think generally--happens that the presence of anyone who stands
and watches beside a sleeping man will wake him, unless his slumbers are unusually
heavy. It was so now. While we looked at him, the sleeper awoke very suddenly,
and fixed his eyes upon us. He put out his hand and took the doctor's in its feeble
grasp. "Who is that?" he asked next, pointing towards me.
"Do you wish him to go? The gentleman knows something of your sufferings, and
is powerfully interested in your case; but he will leave us, if you wish it,"
the doctor said.
"No. Let him stay."
Seating myself out of sight, but where I could both see and hear what passed,
I waited for what should follow. Dr. Garden and John Masey stood beside the bed.
There was a moment's pause.
"I want a looking-glass," said Strange, without a word of preface.
We all started to hear him say those words.
"I am dying," said Strange; "will you not grant me my request?"
Dr. Garden whispered to old Masey; and the latter left the room. He was not absent
long, having gone no further than the next house. He held an oval-framed mirror
in his hand when he returned. A shudder passed through the body of the sick man
as he saw it.
"Put it down," he said, faintly--"anywhere--for the present." No one of us spoke.
I do not think, in that moment of suspense, that we could, any of us, have spoken
if we had tried.
The sick man tried to raise himself a little. "Prop me up," he said. "I speak
with difficulty--I have something to say."
They put pillows behind him, so as to raise his head and body.
"I have presently a use for it," he said, indicating the mirror. "I want to see----"
He stopped, and seemed to change his mind. He was sparing of his words. "I want
to tell you--all about it." Again he was silent. Then he seemed to make a great
effort, and spoke once more, beginning very abruptly.
"I loved my wife fondly. I loved her--her name was Lucy. She was English; but,
alter we were married, we lived long abroad--in Italy. She liked the country,
and I liked what she liked. She liked to draw, too, and I got her a master. He
was an Italian. I will not give his name. We always called him 'the Master.' A
treacherous insidious man this was, and, under cover of his profession, took advantage
of his opportunities, and taught my wife to love him--to love him.
"I am short of breath. I need not enter into details as to how I found them out;
but I did find them out. We were away on a sketching expedition when I made my
discovery. My rage maddened me, and there was one at hand who fomented my madness.
My wife had a maid, who, it seemed, had also loved this man--the Master--and had
been ill-treated and deserted by him. She told me all. She had played the part
of go-between--had carried letters. When she told me these things, it was night,
in a solitary Italian town, among the mountains. 'He is in his room now,' she
said, 'writing to her.'
"A frenzy took possession of me as I listened to those words. I am naturally vindictive--remember
that--and now my longing for revenge was like a thirst. Travelling in those lonely
regions, I was armed, and when the woman said, 'He is writing to your wife,' I
laid hold of my pistols, as by an instinct. It has been some comfort to me since,
that I took them both. Perhaps, at that moment, I may have meant fairly by him--meant
that we should fight. I don't know what I meant, quite. The woman's words, 'He
is in his own room now, writing to her,' rung in my ears.
The sick man stopped to take breath. It seemed an hour, though it was probably
not more than two minutes, before he spoke again.
"I managed to get into his room unobserved. Indeed, he was altogether absorbed
in what he was doing. He was sitting at the only table in the room, writing at
a travelling-desk, by the light of a single candle. It was a rude dressing-table,
and--and before him--exactly before him--there was--there was a looking-glass.
"I stole up behind him as he sat and wrote by the light of the candle. I looked
over his shoulder at the letter, and I read, 'Dearest Lucy, my love, my darling.'
As I read the words, I pulled the trigger of the pistol I held in my right hand,
and killed him--killed him--but, before he died, he looked up once--not at me,
but at my image before him in the glass, and his face--such a face--has been there--ever
since, and mine--my face--is gone!"
He fell back exhausted, and we all pressed forward thinking that he must be dead,
he lay so still.
But he had not yet passed away. He revived under the influence of stimulants.
He tried to speak, and muttered indistinctly from time to time words of which
we could sometimes make no sense. We understood, however, that he had been tried
by an Italian tribunal, and had been found guilty; but with such extenuating circumstances
that his sentence was commuted to imprisonment, during, we thought we made out,
two years. But we could not understand what he said about his wife, though we
gathered that she was still alive, from something he whispered to the doctor of
there being provision made for her in his will.
He lay in a doze for something more than an hour after he had told his tale, and
then he woke up quite suddenly, as he had done when we had first entered the room.
He looked round uneasily in all directions, until his eye fell on the looking-glass.
"I want it," he said, hastily; but I noticed that he did not shudder now as it
was brought near. When old Masey approached, holding it in his hand, and crying
like a child, Dr. Garden came forward and stood between him and his master, taking
the hand of poor Strange in his.
"Is this wise?" he asked. "Is it good, do you think, to revive this misery of
your life now, when it is so near its close? The chastisement of your crime,"
he added, solemnly, "has been a terrible one. Let us hope in God's mercy that
your punishment is over."
The dying man raised himself with a last great effort, and looked up at the doctor
with such an expression on his face as none of us had seen on any face, before.
"I do hope so," he said, faintly, "but you must let me have my way in this--for
if, now, when I look, I see aright--once more--I shall then hope yet more strongly--for
I shall take it as a sign."
The doctor stood aside without another word, when he heard the dying man speak
thus, and the old servant drew near, and, stooping over softly, held the looking-glass
before his master. Presently afterwards, we, who stood around looking breathlessly
at him, saw such a rapture upon his face, as left no doubt upon our minds that
the face which had haunted him so long, had, in his last hour, disappeared.
No.
5 BRANCH LINE.
THE
ENGINEER
by
Amelia B. Edwards

His name, sir, was Matthew Price; mine is Benjamin Hardy. We were born within
a few days of each other; bred up in the same village; taught at the same school.
I cannot remember the time when we were not close friends. Even as boys, we never
knew what it was to quarrel. We had not a thought, we had not a possession, that
was not in common. We would have stood by each other, fearlessly, to the death.
It was such a friendship as one reads about sometimes in books: fast and firm
as the great Tors upon our native moorlands, true as the sun in the heavens.
The name of our village was Chadleigh. Lifted high above the pasture flats which
stretched away at our feet like a measureless green lake and melted into mist
on the furthest horizon, it nestled, a tiny stone-built hamlet, in a sheltered
hollow about midway between the plain and the plateau. Above us, rising ridge
beyond ridge, slope beyond slope, spread the mountainous moor-country, bare and
bleak for the most part, with here and there a patch of cultivated field or hardy
plantation, and crowned highest of all with masses of huge grey crag, abrupt,
isolated, hoary, and older than the deluge. These were the Tors--Druids' Tor,
King's Tor, Castle Tor, and the like; sacred places, as I have heard, in the ancient
time, where crownings, burnings, human sacrifices, and all kinds of bloody heathen
rites were performed. Bones, too, had been found there, and arrow-heads, and ornaments
of gold and glass. I had a vague awe of the Tors in those boyish days, and would
not have gone near them after dark for the heaviest bribe.
I have said that we were born in the same village. He was the son of a small farmer,
named William Price, and the eldest of a family of seven; I was the only child
of Ephraim Hardy, the Chadleigh blacksmith--a well-known man in those parts, whose
memory is not forgotten to this day. Just so far as a farmer is supposed to be
a bigger man than a blacksmith, Mat's father might be said to have a better standing
than mine; but William Price with his small holding and his seven boys, was, in
fact, as poor as many a day-labourer; whilst, the blacksmith, well-to-do, bustling,
popular, and open-handed, was a person of some importance in the place. All this,
however, had nothing to do with Mat and myself. It never occurred to either of
us that his jacket was out at elbows, or that our mutual funds came altogether
from my pocket. It was enough for us that we sat on the same school-bench, conned
our tasks from the same primer, fought each other's battles, screened each other's
faults, fished, nutted, played truant, robbed orchards and birds' nests together,
and spent every half-hour, authorised or stolen, in each other's society. It was
a happy time; but it could not go on for ever. My father, being prosperous, resolved
to put me forward in the world. I must know more, and do better, than himself.
The forge was not good enough, the little world of Chadleigh not wide enough,
for me. Thus it happened that I was still swinging the satchel when Mat was whistling
at the plough, and that at last, when my future course was shaped out, we were
separated, as it then seemed to us, for life. For, blacksmith's son as I was,
furnace and forge, in some form or other, pleased me best, and I chose to be a
working engineer. So my father by-and-by apprenticed me to a Birmingham iron-master;
and, having bidden farewell to Mat, and Chadleigh, and the grey old Tors in the
shadow of which I had spent all the days of my life, I turned my face northward,
and went over into "the Black Country."
I am not going to dwell on this part of my story. How I worked out the term of
my apprenticeship; how, when I had served my full time and become a skilled workman,
I took Mat from the plough and brought him over to the Black Country, sharing
with him lodging, wages, experience--all, in short, that I had to give; how he,
naturally quick to learn and brimful of quiet energy, worked his way up a step
at a time, and came by-and-by to be a "first hand" in his own department; how,
during all these years of change, and trial, and effort, the old boyish affection
never wavered or weakened, but went on, growing with our growth and strengthening
with our strength--are facts which I need do no more than outline in this place.
About this time--it will be remembered that I speak of the days when Mat and I
were on the bright side of thirty--it happened that our firm contracted to supply
six first-class locomotives to run on the new line, then in process of construction,
between Turin and Genoa. It was the first Italian order we had taken. We had had
dealings with France, Holland, Belgium, Germany; but never with Italy. The connection,
therefore, was new and valuable--all the more valuable because our Transalpine
neighbours had but lately begun to lay down the iron roads, and would be safe
to need more of our good English work as they went on. So the Birmingham firm
set themselves to the contract with a will, lengthened our working hours, increased
our wages, took on fresh hands, and determined, if energy and promptitude could
do it, to place themselves at the head of the Italian labour-market, and stay
there. They deserved and achieved success. The six locomotives were not only turned
out to time, but were shipped, despatched, and delivered with a promptitude that
fairly amazed our Piedmontese consignee. I was not a little proud, you may be
sure, when I found myself appointed to superintend the transport of the engines.
Being allowed a couple of assistants, I contrived that Mat should be one of them;
and thus we enjoyed together the first great holiday of our lives.
It was a wonderful change for two Birmingham operatives fresh from the Black Country.
The fairy city, with its crescent background of Alps; the port crowded with strange
shipping; the marvellous blue sky and the bluer sea; the painted houses on the
quays; the quaint cathedral, faced with black and white marble; the street of
jewellers, like an Arabian Nights' bazaar; the street of palaces, with its Moorish
courtyards, its fountains and orange-trees; the women veiled like brides; the
galley-slaves chained two and two; the processions of priests and friars; the
everlasting clangour of bells; the babble of a strange tongue; the singular lightness
and brightness of the climate--made, altogether, such a combination of wonders
that we wandered about, the first day, in a kind of bewildered dream, like children
at a fair. Before that week was ended, being tempted by the beauty of the place
and the liberality of the pay, we had agreed to take service with the Turin and
Genoa Railway Company, and to turn our backs upon Birmingham for ever.
Then began a new life--a life so active and healthy, so steeped in fresh air and
sunshine, that we sometimes marvelled how we could have endured the gloom of the
Black Country. We were constantly up and down the line: now at Genoa, now at Turin,
taking trial trips with the locomotives, and placing our old experiences at the
service of our new employers.
In the meanwhile we made Genoa our headquarters, and hired a couple of rooms over
a small shop in a by-street sloping down to the quays. Such a busy little street--so
steep and winding that no vehicles could pass through it, and so narrow that the
sky looked like a mere strip of deep-blue ribbon overhead! Every house in it,
however, was a shop, where the goods encroached on the footway, or were piled
about the door, or hung like tapestry from the balconies; and all day long, from
dawn to dusk, an incessant stream of passers-by poured up and down between the
port and the upper quarter of the city.
Our landlady was the widow of a silver-worker, and lived by the sale of filigree
ornaments, cheap jewellery, combs, fans, and toys in ivory and jet. She had an
only daughter named Gianetta, who served in the shop, and was simply the most
beautiful woman I ever beheld. Looking back across this weary chasm of years,
and bringing her image before me (as I can and do) with all the vividness of life,
I am unable, even now, to detect a flaw in her beauty. I do not attempt to describe
her. I do not believe there is a poet living who could find the words to do it;
but I once saw a picture that was somewhat like her (not half so lovely, but still
like her), and, for aught I know, that picture is still hanging where I last looked
at it--upon the walls of the Louvre. It represented a woman with brown eyes and
golden hair, looking over her shoulder into a circular mirror held by a bearded
man in the background. In this man, as I then understood, the artist had painted
his own portrait; in her, the portrait of the woman he loved. No picture that
I ever saw was half so beautiful, and yet it was not worthy to be named in the
same breath with Gianetta Coneglia.
You may be certain the widow's shop did not want for customers. All Genoa knew
how fair a face was to be seen behind that dingy little counter; and Gianetta,
flirt as she was, had more lovers than she cared to remember, even by name. Gentle
and simple, rich and poor, from the red-capped sailor buying his ear-rings or
his amulet, to the nobleman carelessly purchasing half the filigrees in the window,
she treated them all alike--encouraged them, laughed at them, led them on and
turned them off at her pleasure. She had no more heart than a marble statue; as
Mat and I discovered by-and-by, to our bitter cost.
I cannot tell to this day how it came about, or what first led me to suspect how
things were going with us both; but long before the waning of that autumn a coldness
had sprung up between my friend and myself. It was nothing that could have been
put into words. It was nothing that either of us could have explained or justified,
to save his life. We lodged together, ate together, worked together, exactly as
before; we even took our long evening's walk together, when the day's labour was
ended; and except, perhaps, that we were more silent than of old, no mere looker-on
could have detected a shadow of change. Yet there it was, silent and subtle, widening
the gulf between us every day.
It was not his fault. He was too true and gentle-hearted to have willingly brought
about such a state of things between us. Neither do I believe--fiery as my nature
is--that it was mine. It was all hers--hers from first to last--the sin, and the
shame, and the sorrow.
If she had shown a fair and open preference for either of us, no real harm could
have come of it. I would have put any constraint upon myself, and, Heaven knows!
have borne any suffering, to see Mat really happy. I know that he would have done
the same, and more if he could, for me. But Gianetta cared not one sou for either.
She never meant to choose between us. It gratified her vanity to divide us; it
amused her to play with us. It would pass my power to tell how, by a thousand
imperceptible shades of coquetry--by the lingering of a glance, the substitution
of a word, the flitting of a smile--she contrived to turn our heads, and torture
our hearts, and lead us on to love her. She deceived us both. She buoyed us both
up with hope; she maddened us with jealousy; she crushed us with despair. For
my part, when I seemed to wake to a sudden sense of the ruin that was about our
path and I saw how the truest friendship that ever bound two lives together was
drifting on to wreck and ruin, I asked myself whether any woman in the world was
worth what Mat had been to me and I to him. But this was not often. I was readier
to shut my eyes upon the truth than to face it; and so lived on, wilfully, in
a dream.
Thus the autumn passed away, and winter came--the strange, treacherous Genoese
winter, green with olive and ilex, brilliant with sunshine, and bitter with storm.
Still, rivals at heart and friends on the surface, Mat and I lingered on in our
lodging in the Vicolo Balba. Still Gianetta held us with her fatal wiles and her
still more fatal beauty. At length there came a day when I felt I could bear the
horrible misery and suspense of it no longer. The sun, I vowed, should not go
down before I knew my sentence. She must choose between us. She must either take
me or let me go. I was reckless. I was desperate. I was determined to know the
worst, or the best. If the worst, I would at once turn my back upon Genoa, upon
her, upon all the pursuits and purposes of my past life, and begin the world anew.
This I told her, passionately and sternly, standing before her in the little parlour
at the back of the shop, one bleak December morning.
"If it's Mat whom you care for most," I said, "tell me so in one word, and I will
never trouble you again. He is better worth your love. I am jealous and exacting;
he is as trusting and unselfish as a woman. Speak, Gianetta; am I to bid you good-bye
for ever and ever, or am I to write home to my mother in England, bidding her
pray to God to bless the woman who has promised to be my wife?"
"You plead your friend's cause well," she replied, haughtily. "Matteo ought to
be grateful. This is more than he ever did for you."
"Give me my answer, for pity's sake," I exclaimed, "and let me go!"
"You are free to go or stay, Signor Inglese," she replied. "I am not your jailor."
"Do you bid me leave you?"
"Beata Madre! not I."
"Will you marry me, if I stay?"
She laughed aloud--such a merry, mocking, musical laugh, like a chime of silver
bells!
"You ask too much," she said.
"Only what you have led me to hope these five or six months past!"
"That is just what Matteo says. How tiresome you both are!"
"O, Gianetta," I said, passionately, "be serious for one moment! I am a rough
fellow, it is true--not half good enough or clever enough for you; but I love
you with my whole heart, and an Emperor could do no more."
"I am glad of it," she replied; "I do not want you to love me less."
"Then you cannot wish to make me wretched! Will you promise me?"
"I promise nothing," said she, with another burst of laughter; "except that I
will not marry Matteo!"
Except that she would not marry Matteo! Only that. Not a word of hope for myself.
Nothing but my friend's condemnation. I might get comfort, and selfish triumph,
and some sort of base assurance out of that, if I could. And so, to my shame,
I did. I grasped at the vain encouragement, and, fool that I was! let her put
me off again unanswered. From that day, I gave up all effort at self-control,
and let myself drift blindly on--to destruction.
At length things became so bad between Mat and myself that it seemed as if an
open rupture must be at hand. We avoided each other, scarcely exchanged a dozen
sentences in a day, and fell away from all our old familiar habits. At this time--I
shudder to remember it!--there were moments when I felt that I hated him.
Thus, with the trouble deepening and widening between us day by day, another month
or five weeks went by; and February came; and, with February, the Carnival. They
said in Genoa that it was a particularly dull carnival; and so it must have been;
for, save a flag or two hung out in some of the principal streets, and a sort
of festa look about the women, there were no special indications of the season.
It was, I think, the second day when, having been on the line all the morning,
I returned to Genoa at dusk, and, to my surprise, found Mat Price on the platform.
He came up to me, and laid his hand on my arm.
"You are in late," he said. "I have been waiting for you three-quarters of an
hour. Shall we dine together to-day?"
Impulsive as I am, this evidence of returning goodwill at once called up my better
feelings.
"With all my heart, Mat," I replied; "shall we go to Gozzoli's?"
"No, no," he said, hurriedly. "Some quieter place--some place where we can talk.
I have something to say to you."
I noticed now that he looked pale and agitated, and an uneasy sense of apprehension
stole upon me. We decided on the "Pescatore," a little out-of-the-way trattoria,
down near the Molo Vecchio. There, in a dingy salon, frequented chiefly by seamen,
and redolent of tobacco, we ordered our simple dinner. Mat scarcely swallowed
a morsel; but, calling presently for a bottle of Sicilian wine, drank eagerly.
"Well, Mat," I said, as the last dish was placed on the table, "what news have
you?"
"Bad."
"I guessed that from your face."
"Bad for you--bad for me. Gianetta."
"What of Gianetta?"
He passed his hand nervously across his lips.
"Gianetta is false--worse than false," he said, in a hoarse voice. "She values
an honest man's heart just as she values a flower for her hair--wears it for a
day, then throws it aside for ever. She has cruelly wronged us both."
"In what way? Good Heavens, speak out!"
"In the worst way that a woman can wrong those who love her. She has sold herself
to the Marchese Loredano."
The blood rushed to my head and face in a burning torrent. I could scarcely see,
and dared not trust myself to speak.
"I saw her going towards the cathedral," he went on, hurriedly. "It was about
three hours ago. I thought she might be going to confession, so I hung back and
followed her at a distance. When she got inside, however, she went straight to
the back of the pulpit, where this man was waiting for her. You remember him--an
old man who used to haunt the shop a month or two back. Well, seeing how deep
in conversation they were, and how they stood close under the pulpit with their
backs towards the church, I fell into a passion of anger and went straight up
the aisle, intending to say or do something: I scarcely knew what; but, at all
events, to draw her arm through mine, and take her home. When I came within a
few feet, however, and found only a big pillar between myself and them, I paused.
They could not see me, nor I them; but I could hear their voices distinctly, and--and
I listened."
"Well, and you heard----"
"The terms of a shameful bargain--beauty on the one side, gold on the other; so
many thousand francs a year; a villa near Naples----- Pah! it makes me sick to
repeat it."
And, with a shudder, he poured out another glass of wine and drank it at a draught.
"After that," he said, presently, "I made no effort to bring her away. The whole
thing was so cold-blooded, so deliberate, so shameful, that I felt I had only
to wipe her out of my memory, and leave her to her fate. I stole out of the cathedral,
and walked about here by the sea for ever so long, trying to get my thoughts straight.
Then I remembered you, Ben; and the recollection of how this wanton had come between
us and broken up our lives drove me wild. So I went up to the station and waited
for you. I felt you ought to know it all; and--and I thought, perhaps, that we
might go back to England together."
"The Marchese Loredano!"
It was all that I could say; all that I could think. As Mat had just said of himself,
I felt "like one stunned."
"There is one other thing I may as well tell you," he added, reluctantly, "if
only to show you how false a woman can be. We--we were to have been married next
month."
"We? Who? What do you mean?"
"I mean that we were to have been married--Gianetta and I."
A sudden storm of rage, of scorn, of incredulity, swept over me at this, and seemed
to carry my senses away.
"You!" I cried. "Gianetta marry you! I don't believe it."
"I wish I had not believed it," he replied, looking up as if puzzled by my vehemence.
"But she promised me; and I thought, when she promised it, she meant it."
"She told me, weeks ago, that she would never be your wife!"
His colour rose, his brow darkened; but when his answer came, it was as calm as
the last.
"Indeed!" he said. "Then it is only one baseness more. She told me that she had
refused you; and that was why we kept our engagement secret."
"Tell the truth, Mat Price," I said, well-nigh beside myself with suspicion. "Confess
that every word of this is false! Confess that Gianetta will not listen to you,
and that you are afraid I may succeed where you have failed. As perhaps I shall--as
perhaps I shall, after all!"
"Are you mad?" he exclaimed. "What do you mean?"
"That I believe it's just a trick to get me away to England--that I don't credit
a syllable of your story. You're a liar, and I hate you!"
He rose, and, laying one hand on the back of his chair, looked me sternly in the
face.
"If you were not Benjamin Hardy," he said, deliberately, "I would thrash you within
an inch of your life."
The words had no sooner passed his lips than I sprang at him. I have never been
able distinctly to remember what followed. A curse--a blow--a struggle--a moment
of blind fury--a cry--a confusion of tongues--a circle of strange faces. Then
I see Mat lying back in the arms of a bystander; myself trembling and bewildered--the
knife dropping from my grasp; blood upon the floor; blood upon my hands; blood
upon his shirt. And then I hear those dreadful words:
"O, Ben, you have murdered me!"
He did not die--at least, not there and then. He was carried to the nearest hospital,
and lay for some weeks between life and death. His case, they said, was difficult
and dangerous. The knife had gone in just below the collar-bone, and pierced down
into the lungs. He was not allowed to speak or turn--scarcely to breathe with
freedom. He might not even lift his head to drink. I sat by him day and night
all through that sorrowful time. I gave up my situation on the railway; I quitted
my lodging in the Vicolo Balba; I tried to forget that such a woman as Gianetta
Coneglia had ever drawn breath. I lived only for Mat; and he tried to live more,
I believe, for my sake than his own. Thus, in the bitter silent hours of pain
and penitence, when no hand but mine approached his lips or smoothed his pillow,
the old friendship came back with even more than its old trust and faithfulness.
He forgave me, fully and freely; and I would thankfully have given my life for
him.
At length there came one bright spring morning, when, dismissed as convalescent,
he tottered out through the hospital gates, leaning on my arm, and feeble as an
infant. He was not cured; neither, as I then learned to my horror and anguish,
was it possible that he ever could be cured. He might live, with care, for some
years; but the lungs were injured beyond hope of remedy, and a strong or healthy
man he could never be again. These, spoken aside to me, were the parting words
of the chief physician, who advised me to take him further south without delay.
I took him to a little coast-town called Rocca, some thirty miles beyond Genoa--a
sheltered lonely place along the Riviera, where the sea was even bluer than the
sky, and the cliffs were green with strange tropical plants, cacti, and aloes,
and Egyptian palms. Here we lodged in the house of a small tradesman; and Mat,
to use his own words, "set to work at getting well in good earnest." But, alas!
it was a work which no earnestness could forward. Day after day he went down to
the beach, and sat for hours drinking the sea air and watching the sails that
came and went in the offing. By-and-by he could go no further than the garden
of the house in which we lived. A little later, and he spent his days on a couch
beside the open window, waiting patiently for the end. Ay, for the end! It had
come to that. He was fading fast, waning with the waning summer, and conscious
that the Reaper was at hand. His whole aim now was to soften the agony of my remorse,
and prepare me for what must shortly come.
"I would not live longer, if I could," he said, lying on his couch one summer
evening. and looking up to the stars. "If I had my choice at this moment, I would
ask to go. I should like Gianetta to know that I forgave her."
"She shall know it," I said, trembling suddenly from head to foot.
He pressed my hand.
"And you'll write to father?"
"I will."
I had drawn a little back, that he might not see the tears raining down my cheeks;
but he raised himself on his elbow, and looked round.
"Don't fret, Ben," he whispered; laid his head back wearily upon the pillow--and
so died.
And this was the end of it. This was the end of all that made life life to me.
I buried him there, in hearing of the wash of a strange sea on a strange shore.
I stayed by the grave till the priest and the bystanders were gone. I saw the
earth filled in to the last sod, and the gravedigger stamped it down with his
feet. Then, and not till then, I felt that I had lost him for ever--the friend
I had loved, and hated, and slain. Then, and not till then, I knew that all rest,
and joy, and hope were over for me. From that moment my heart hardened within
me, and my life was filled with loathing. Day and night, land and sea, labour
and rest, food and sleep, were alike hateful to me. It was the curse of Cain,
and that my brother had pardoned me made it lie none the lighter. Peace on earth
was for me no more, and goodwill towards men was dead in my heart for ever. Remorse
softens some natures; but it poisoned mine. I hated all mankind; but above all
mankind I hated the woman who had come between us two, and ruined both our lives.
He had bidden me seek her out, and be the messenger of his forgiveness. I had
sooner have gone down to the port of Genoa and taken upon me the serge cap and
shotted chain of any galley-slave at his toil in the public works; but for all
that I did my best to obey him. I went back, alone and on foot. I went back, intending
to say to her, "Gianetta Coneglia, he forgave you; but God never will." But she
was gone. The little shop was let to a fresh occupant; and the neighbours only
knew that mother and daughter had left the place quite suddenly, and that Gianetta
was supposed to be under the "protection " of the Marchese Loredano. How I made
inquiries here and there--how I heard that they had gone to Naples--and how, being
restless and reckless of my time, I worked my passage in a French steamer, and
followed her--how, having found the sumptuous villa that was now hers, I learned
that she had left there some ten days and gone to Paris, where the Marchese was
ambassador for the Two Sicilies--how, working my passage back again to Marseilles,
and thence, in part by the river and in part by the rail, I made my way to Paris--how,
day after day, I paced the streets and the parks, watched at the ambassador's
gates, followed his carriage, and at last, after weeks of waiting, discovered
her address--how, having written to request an interview, her servants spurned
me from her door and flung my letter in my face--how, looking up at her windows,
I then, instead of forgiving, solemnly cursed her with the bitterest curses my
tongue could devise--and how, this done, I shook the dust of Paris from my feet,
and became a wanderer upon the face of the earth, are facts which I have now no
space to tell.
The next six or eight years of my life were shifting and unsettled enough. A morose
and restless man, I took employment here and there, as opportunity offered, turning
my hand to many things, and caring little what I earned, so long as the work was
hard and the change incessant. First of all I engaged myself as chief engineer
in one of the French steamers plying between Marseilles and Constantinople. At
Constantinople I changed to one of the Austrian Lloyd's boats, and worked for
some time to and from Alexandria, Jaffa, and those parts After that, I fell in
with a party of Mr. Layard's men at Cairo, and so went up the Nile and took a
turn at the excavations of the mound of Nimroud. Then I became a working engineer
on the new desert line between Alexandria and Suez; and by-and-by I worked my
passage out to Bombay, and took service as an engine fitter on one of the great
Indian railways. I stayed a long time in India; that is to say, I stayed nearly
two years, which was a long time for me; and I might not even have left so soon,
but for the war that was declared just then with Russia. That tempted me. For
I loved danger and hardship as other men love safety and ease; and as for my life,
I had sooner have parted from it than kept it, any day. So I came straight back
to England; betook myself to Portsmouth, where my testimonials at once procured
me the sort of berth I wanted. I went out to the Crimea in the engine-room of
one of her Majesty's war steamers.
I served with the fleet, of course, while the war lasted; and when it was over,
went wandering off again, rejoicing in my liberty. This time I went to Canada,
and after working on a railway then in progress near the American frontier. I
presently passed over into the States; journeyed from north to south; crossed
the Rocky Mountains; tried a month or two of life in the gold country; and then,
being seized with a sudden, aching, unaccountable longing to revisit that solitary
grave so far away on the Italian coast, I turned my face once more towards Europe.
Poor little grave! I found it rank with weeds, the cross half shattered, the inscription
half effaced. It was as if no one had loved him, or remembered him. I went back
to the house in which we had lodged together. The same people were still living
there, and made me kindly welcome. I stayed with them for some weeks. I weeded,
and planted, and trimmed the grave with my own hands, and set up a fresh cross
in pure white marble. It was the first season of rest that I had known since I
laid him there; and when at last I shouldered my knapsack and set forth again
to battle with the world, I promised myself that, God willing, I would creep back
to Rocca, when my days drew near to ending, and be buried by his side.
From hence, being, perhaps, a little less inclined than formerly for very distant
parts, and willing to keep within reach of that grave, I went no further than
Mantua, where I engaged myself as an engine-driver on the line, then not long
completed, between that city and Venice. Somehow, although I had been trained
to the working engineering, I preferred in these days to earn my bread by driving.
I liked the excitement of it, the sense of power, the rush of the air, the roar
of the fire, the flitting of the landscape. Above all, I enjoyed to drive a night
express. The worse the weather, the better it suited with my sullen temper. For
I was as hard, and harder than ever. The years had done nothing to soften me.
They had only confirmed all that was blackest and bitterest in my heart.
I continued pretty faithful to the Mantua line, and had been working on it steadily
for more than seven months when that which I am now about to relate took place.
It was in the month of March. The weather had been unsettled for some days past,
and the nights stormy; and at one point along the line, near Ponte di Brenta,
the waters had risen and swept away some seventy yards of embankment. Since this
accident, the trains had all been obliged to stop at a certain spot between Padua
and Ponte di Brenta, and the passengers, with their luggage, had thence to be
transported in all kinds of vehicles, by a circuitous country road, to the nearest
station on the other side of the gap, where another train and engine awaited them.
This, of course, caused great confusion and annoyance, put all our time-tables
wrong, and subjected the public to a large amount of inconvenience. In the mean
while an army of navvies was drafted to the spot, and worked day and night to
repair the damage. At this time I was driving two through trains each day; namely,
one from Mantua to Venice in the early morning, and a return train from Venice
to Mantua in the afternoon--a tolerably full days' work, covering about one hundred
and ninety miles of ground, and occupying between ten and eleven hours. I was
therefore not best pleased when, on the third or fourth day after the accident,
I was informed that, in addition to my regular allowance of work, I should that
evening be required to drive a special train to Venice. This special train, consisting
of an engine, a single carriage, and a break-van, was to leave the Mantua platform
at eleven; at Padua the passengers were to alight and find post-chaises waiting
to convey them to Ponte di Brenta; at Ponte di Brenta another engine, carriage,
and break-van were to be in readiness, I was charged to accompany them throughout.
"Corpo di Bacco," said the clerk who gave me my orders, "you need not look so
black, man. You are certain of a handsome gratuity. Do you know who goes with
you?"
"Not I."
"Not you, indeed! Why, it's the Duca Loredano, the Neapolitan ambassador."
"Loredano!" I stammered. "What Loredano? There was a Marchese----"
"Certo. He was the Marchese Loredano some years ago; but he has come into his
dukedom since then."
"He must be a very old man by this time."
"Yes, he is old; but what of that? He is as hale, and bright, and stately as ever.
You have seen him before?"
"Yes," I said, turning away; "I have seen him--years ago."
"You have heard of his marriage?"
I shook my head.
The clerk chuckled, rubbed his hands, and shrugged his shoulders.
"An extraordinary affair," he said. "Made a tremendous esclandre at the time.
He married his mistress--quite a common, vulgar girl--a Genoese--very handsome;
but not received, of course. Nobody visits her."
"Married her!" I exclaimed. "Impossible."
"True, I assure you."
I put my hand to my head. I felt as if I had had a fall or a blow.
"Does she--does she go to-night?" I faltered.
"O dear, yes--goes everywhere with him--never lets him out of her sight. You'll
see her--la bella Duchessa!"
With this my informant laughed, and rubbed his hands again, and went back to his
office.
The day went by, I scarcely know how, except that my whole soul was in a tumult
of rage and bitterness. I returned from my afternoon's work about 7.25, and at
10.30 I was once again at the station. I had examined the engine; given instructions
to the Fochista, or stoker, about the fire; seen to the supply of oil; and got
all in readiness, when, just as I was about to compare my watch with the clock
in the ticket-office, a hand was laid upon my arm, and a voice in my ear said:
"Are you the engine-driver who is going on with this special train?"
I had never seen the speaker before. He was a small, dark man, muffled up about
the throat, with blue glasses, a large black beard, and his hat drawn low upon
his eyes.
"You are a poor man, I suppose," he said, in a quick, eager whisper, "and, like
other poor men, would not object to be better off. Would you like to earn a couple
of thousand florins?"
"In what way?"
"Hush! You are to stop at Padua, are you not, and to go on again at Ponte di Brenta?"
I nodded.
"Suppose you did nothing of the kind. Suppose, instead of turning off the steam,
you jump off the engine, and let the train run on?"
"Impossible. There are seventy yards of embankment gone, and----"
"Basta! I know that. Save yourself, and let the train run on. It would be nothing
but an accident."
I turned hot and cold; I trembled; my heart beat fast, and my breath failed.
"Why do you tempt me?" I faltered.
"For Italy's sake," he whispered; "for liberty's sake. I know you are no Italian;
but, for all that, you may be a friend. This Loredano is one of his country's
bitterest enemies. Stay, here are the two thousand florins."
I thrust his hand back fiercely.
"No--no," I said. "No blood-money. If I do it, I do it neither for Italy nor for
money; but for vengeance."
"For vengeance!" he repeated.
At this moment the signal was given for backing up to the platform. I sprang to
my place upon the engine without another word. When I again looked towards the
spot where he had been standing, the stranger was gone.
I saw them take their places--Duke and Duchess, secretary and priest, valet and
maid. I saw the station-master bow them into the carriage, and stand, bareheaded,
beside the door. I could not distinguish their faces; the platform was too dusk,
and the glare from the engine fire too strong; but I recognised her stately figure,
and the poise of her head. Had I not been told who she was, I should have known
her by those traits alone. Then the guard's whistle shrilled out, and the station-master
made his last bow; I turned the steam on; and we started.
My blood was on fire. I no longer trembled or hesitated. I felt as if every nerve
was iron, and every pulse instinct with deadly purpose. She was in my power, and
I would be avenged. She should die--she, for whom I had stained my soul with my
friend's blood! She should die, in the plenitude of her wealth and her beauty,
and no power upon earth should save her!
The stations flew past. I put on more steam; I bade the fireman heap in the coke,
and stir the blazing mass. I would have outstripped the wind, had it been possible.
Faster and faster--hedges and trees, bridges, and stations, flashing past--villages
no sooner seen than gone--telegraph wires twisting, and dipping, and twining themselves
in one, with the awful swiftness of our pace! Faster and faster, till the fireman
at my side looks white and scared, and refuses to add more fuel to the furnace.
Faster and faster, till the wind rushes in our faces and drives the breath back
upon our lips.
I would have scorned to save myself. I meant to die with the rest. Mad as I was--and
I believe from my very soul that I was utterly mad for the time--I felt a passing
pang of pity for the old man and his suite. I would have spared the poor fellow
at my side, too, if I could; but the pace at which we were going made escape impossible.
Vicenza was passed--a mere confused vision of lights. Pojana flew by. At Padua,
but nine miles distant, our passengers were to alight. I saw the fireman's face
turned upon me in remonstrance; I saw his lips move, though I could not hear a
word; I saw his expression change suddenly from remonstrance to a deadly terror,
and then--merciful Heaven! then, for the first time, I saw that he and I were
no longer alone upon the engine.
There was a third man--a third man standing on my right hand, as the fireman was
standing on my left--a tall, stalwart man, with short curling hair, and a flat
Scotch cap upon his head. As I fell back in the first shock of surprise, he stepped
nearer; took my place at the engine, and turned the steam off. I opened my lips
to speak to him; he turned his head slowly, and looked me in the face.
Matthew Price!
I uttered one long wild cry, flung my arms wildly up above my head, and fell as
if I had been smitten with an axe.
* * * *
I am prepared for the objections that may be made to my story. I expect, as a
matter of course, to be told that this was an optical illusion, or that I was
suffering from pressure on the brain, or even that I laboured under an attack
of temporary insanity. I have heard all these arguments before, and, if I may
be forgiven for saying so, I have no desire to hear them again. My own mind has
been made up upon this subject for many a year. All that I can say--all that I
know is--that Matthew Price came back from the dead, to save my soul and the lives
of those whom I, in my guilty rage, would have hurried to destruction. I believe
this as I believe in the mercy of Heaven and the forgiveness of repentant sinners.
Two
sections are missing from this Christmas issue: Branch Line No. 2 by Andrew Halliday
and Branch Line No. 4 by Hesba Stretton.